James Cassells/Sam Bettley (and some Brusnop)

Part 11

Alright new part, sorry it took so long, sorry if it's not that interesting...enjoy it anyway!! ^w^

James's P.O.V

I thanked Cam for helping me getting in the bus and leaned against the closest thing to the door, which I guess was the closet. I looked up and saw Sam glaring at me, spreading fire through my whole body. As much as I hate to admit it, he has this effect on me everytime I lay my eyes on him. Cameron went to kiss Sam good night but I stepped in front of him so he won't, he got the hint and left to go check on Ben. Sam kept glaring as I sat in front of him. I didn't know what to say, so I just stared at him, he still looked angry and it seemed like a thousand things were running through his mind. I glared at the bottle of jack in his hand, that would explain why he's so angry. Alcohol made him bitter sometimes.

"Sam give it to me" I did a move towards him but he just pushed me away. I sighed and his jaw tensed instantly, I won't push it further he might punch me. I laid my head on the table, the room still spinning a bit around me. Sam took a drink right from the bottle and looked away from me, it was an awkward silence and I wanted to say so many things. That I'm sorry, that I want him more than anything, that I hate him too, that I want him away from me, that I want to keep him close and that I want him gone and...I don't know anymore. I guess I'm not thinking straight and it's the alcohol talking. I chuckle at how pathetic I might look.

"What's so funny?" What I was saying, bitter. I looked up and my smile fade, he looked dead serious and quite more sober than he actually was. I shook my head and turned back to my staring of the floor. Sam got in the same position as me but he looked the other, toward the kitchen.

"I'm so fucking tired of your shit, make up your fucking mind James. I'm not a random whore you picked up" I looked at him but he kept his look away from me. What the hell was he talking about. He wasn't expecting us to be boyfriends now?! As much as I loved him there was no way we could be like Ben and Danny...well how it used to be between them. Plus I'm not fucking gay, I'm okay with others doing whatever they want with their lives but bloody hell not me.

"I'm not fucking gay Sam" I almost whispered in annoyance. But Sam snapped, the bottle flew through the room to crash on the floor, near from the bunk area. I looked up at him just in time as he was getting up. Wow he's truly pissed... His hand went to my shirt collar and held me there, was he gonna punch me now?

"Don't tell me you're not gay, I sucked your fucking dick for fucks sakes!" He yelled so loud I think he woke up the whole town. No one came out from the bunk area so I guess they got that we wanted some privacy (well, as much privacy as you can have in a bus) or that they were already in deep sleep. I tried to get up to be at his level, but fall back straight on the sofa, room's still spinning. I looked at the smashed bottle and the remaining of it on the floor, he made a great mess.

"Sam sit down please" I was too drunk to have this conversation right now. And he was too, he was drunk and pissed and I was tired. Now wasn't the moment at all. I got his hand and sat him down. Surprisingly he obeyed and sat back down. I didn't know where we stood together but I think none of us really knew. I stroked his hand but he took it away, okay he was really mad. Maaan the room is going batshit crazy, it's spinning a lot and the only fix thing is Sam.

"How's Ben?" He looked at the bunk area and sighed. Well I guess that meant pretty badly. Danny could be such a dick head sometimes. Ben was awesome but wasn't easy to live with either. I get why they fought a lot. I looked at Sam and he seemed deep in thoughts too.

"Are you fucking kidding me?! Why aren't we talking about it?" Sam asked turning his gaze to me, he didn't seemed angry anymore. I sighed and got up and tried to steady my balance. We're not talking about it because I'm drunk and might say I love you because I do. I fucking do. I looked at Sam and kissed his cheek. He didn't tried to pull away or push me.

"Good night" I went to my bunk and started to drift off almost instantly. I heard Sam footstep, some shuffling in the bunks, but Sam didn't got in his bunk. Or else I would have felt it. I also heard some whispering. I'll see that with him tomorrow.

~

I woke up with a fucking hangover and a headache I was used to. I got up from my bunk and looked at Sam's. Empty, just like I thought. I sighed and went to the living area. Ben was there, just staring into space like yesterday, but this time he looked up at me. He didn't smiled or waved like usual but there was at least a reaction. I went to the fridge but it was empty, I shut it with a loud kick in the door. I looked at Ben, he looked miserable, really. And that annoyed me to no point, I just wanted to punch him.

"Get your ass up we're getting breakfast" I pushed Ben's shoulder and he looked at me in confusion and probably annoyance too. But he got up anyway and followed me outside. There was still no signs of Danny, I guess Ben was kind of waiting for him when I came in. I looked at Ben and put my arm over his shoulders as we walked to the nearest grocery store. We got in and picked up some candy bars, some juice and milk.

"Do you have any money on you?" Ben stopped and shuffled in his pockets, he looked at me and shook his head. Fuck, neither did I. I smiled and Ben looked at me with a questioning look on his face.

"Guess we'll have to run then" Ben smiled back and we started walking slowly to the exit, slowly at first, then we ran outside as fast as possible as far away as we could. I was way ahead of Ben but I could hear him laugh behind me. I turned around and Ben was smiling like he hadn't in days, I knew that was what he needed, I'm the best. We ran 'til we found a park not that far from the bus. Ben and I sat down in the grass and ate our breakfast in silence. I glanced at him and he seemed deep in thoughts again, but there was still the shadow of a smile on his face. He turned to me and ark a brow.

"Take a picture, last longer" I chuckled and throw the empty carton of milk at him. He pushed me in the grass and smirked. I looked in front of me and

"Hey, Sam didn't went to your bunk last night?" I kind of wanted to know where his little gay ass have been all night. Ben looked at me and shook his head. Now I know where he's been. We got back to the bus, slowly, not really talking again. We got in the bus, Cameron was there, just on his phone doing nothing. We said our good mornings, we just kept our no talking rule and ignored each others presence.

I heard the bathroom door open and Sam showed up, he looked like he was about to talk but when he saw me he just closed his mouth and went straight outside. I sighed and took my cigs out and went outside.

Sam was smoking, looking in the distance, I noticed his hands shaking. I hated it, when he gave me the silent treatment and I could see that he wasn't feeling good at all. Okay James time to man up, you have balls, use them!

"I think we should have this talk"