Philza Oneshots

Overlooked

This was requested by @VeraciousVexed 

Art by u/BrownLilFloof_ on Reddit.

Topics Included:

Angst

Fluff

You thought it was innocence, but it was me, cursing/swearing/bad words!

Prompt: It's Philza's birthday, but he's forgotten all about it, trying to cope with depression. The sleepy bois remember his birthday and surprise him.

Trigger Warnings (TW): Self-deprecation, sleeping disorder, mild eating disorder, self-harm (not cutting, just phil plucking feathers out of his wings which mind you, still damn hurts.)

VIEWER DISCRETION HIGHLY ADVISED. I WILL ADD A START AND END TO EVERY POSSIBLE SCENE THAT MAY TRIGGER, AND WILL SUMMARIZE IT BRIEFLY AT THE END OF THE TRIGGER. PLEASE STOP READING IF AT ANY POINT YOU FEEL UNCOMFORTABLE. THANK YOU <33

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Trigger Warning Start, Viewer Discretion Is Advised.

He should really go to bed.

For a majority of the night, sleep had not invited Phil. Knees brought up to his chest and resting back on his wall, he sat there staring at the wall opposite him. Why was he staring? Is there something he should be doing? What can he even do? Nothing right, that's for sure.

He was scared. Scared of the nightmares that invaded his sleep. Scared of that one cave. The cave he almost lost his life in.

He hadn't told his sons about the baby in golden armour that almost took his life. He didn't want to remember it. He couldn't. Not again.

But it always came back. There was always a speck of similarity everywhere to trigger it. So as to avoid it as much as possible, he stopped sleeping. Sometimes, unpurposefully, he'd pass out and sleep for a few hours, but not before a nightmare woke him right back up. He tried drinking some coffee and energy drinks to help. He didn't like the coffee. The energy drinks helped a little, but he gave up on those too. To make it worse, he was terribly hungry. Most of the time, he forgot to eat something, either too deep in his prison-like mind or worrying too much about his sons eating. Techno often forgot to do so as he'd immediately put his armour on and walk straight out the door, so Phil had started to make sure all of them ate at least something before doing anything else.

Why couldn't he do the same for himself? What was wrong with him??

Everything.

There was that little voice again. Oh, how he hated it.

He started unconsciously plucking his feathers off his wings. It was a bad habit that had sprung up not too long before, and he hadn't been able to stop, no matter how much it hurt.

Trigger Warning End

Summarization: Phil can't sleep, and worries too much about his sons to have a healthy eating schedule. Voices in his head mock him. Slight self-harm.

------------- Small Timeskip (few hours later) -------------

The chimes of an alarm filled the room, jolting Phil awake. Damn, he must have passed out again. This was the 3rd time this week. He scolded himself for falling asleep.