A Black Heart Beats With Red Love

Black Heart Confusion

I sat, staring blankly at the wall in Claude's bedroom where I had been forced to spend my days so far with him. It was a precaution just in case Sebastian came for me, but to my dismay there was no sign of him. I blinked slowly and as my eyes opened again Claude was there, standing infront of me with a cocky grin on his face. "Well well, beginning to lose hope I see?" he taunted. There was an insane, victorious look in his golden eyes and it made me shift uncomfortably in my place. "I wont ever lose hope, Claude. I love him." I said, my brows furrowing in anger. His look was a frustrated one and it gave me a small satisfactory feeling to see that he was struggling to completely win this war. To most it would seem he had won, but for that to have been true, I would need to be in love with him.

On that thought there was something else that bothered me. The more I was away from Sebastian and the more I became accustomed to being a demon, the more I grew fond of Claude. I hated it. This curse I had on me. One that was eternal. It was making me love the wrong demon and that was something worth crying for.

Claude's eyes flashed a bright fucshia and he grinned. "Come here." He demanded. Before I knew it, I was obeying his orders and I stood before him, my eyes glazed over. "Kiss me." He demanded, his hands encircling me. I stared in horror at him, but my body refused to deny the order and I found myself inching forward towards him. Closer and closer I became until I could feel his breath on my lips. Thats when a surge of self control came over me and I shoved him away as hard as I could. He went flying and slammed into the wall, cracks webbing around him. My breathing was rapid and I watched as he growled and pulled himself up, pushing his glasses up the bridge of his nose. "One day you wont have a choice. One day, one day soon, you will be completely powerless against my commands." He growled. I crossed my arms over my chest and grinned at him. "Yeah, and maybe youll be dead before that day can come, Claude." His eyes flew wide at my words and he rushed at me. He latched onto my wrists and slammed me agaisnt the wall. "You really believe you can kill me? Or that Id be stupid enough to let you?" He said, his tone was murderously low and hushed, like a threat that howled in the wind. I turned my head away from him, not wanting to look at his face. His hand gripped my chin and forced me to look into his eyes. "Its a shame." I muttered, my tone surprisingly calm. He quirked a brow at me and tilted his head in confusion. "Its a shame that you're a psychotic bastard, because if you werent, I might actually like you." I said and gave an ironic laugh at the thought of it. His face grew even more murderous and he back handed me, sending me to the ground.

He stood, breathing heavily looking to the side, eyes closed. He seemed to be trying to calm himself. I watched him, sitting on the ground with my hands on either side of me, flat on the ground to try to support myself. The next words he had said were words I never expected to come from him. "Im sorry." He murmured. His eyes rose to mine and stayed there for a second before he turned his back to me. "Clean yourself up. We have a meeting to attend." He said softly before walking out of the room. I was left with wide eyes wondering what had gotten into him to say sorry. Knowing Claude, he would rather give me away than say that, but maybe..maybe I didnt know him after all.

-Sebastians POV-

I looked to the side of me, and watched a certain figure lying curled up under the covers shivering. I saw that Alois wasnt completely a brat. He did try to help ____ and I after all so to return the favor I took him in and tended to his wounds. He was alive, weak, but alive. My master had allowed me to take him in seeing as he had had a change in heart. "Sebastian?" I heard my masters voice in the doorway. I turned to face him. "My Lord, what are you doing out of bed?" I asked and walked over to him. "I couldnt sleep.." He said and awkwardly looked to the side. I smirked. " Would you like me to read you a bed time story?" I taunted. He looked up with a glare. "Shut up." I chuckled and watched as my master walked further into the room and stood beside the bed that held Alois.

"What happened exactly?" He asked, looking from Alois to me. "Claude betrayed him, and intended to rid himself of the burden. I dont know how Lord Trancy survived the blow but he did." I said, a hand on my chin. "Claude is so obsessed with ____ that he would throw away Alois' soul?" Ciel looked to me and I nodded in reply. "Interesting.." He noted. "Could she be his mate?" He asked. "No." I said sternly, my brows furrowed. Ciel stayed silent for a bit before asking, "Could she be your mate?" I remained silent and Ciel found my eyes, analyzing me as if I were a book. He smirked. "I see." he said before walking to the door way. "Goodnight Sebastian." He added before turning the corner and leaving the room. I grinned to myself as I thought of my little masters words. Clever Master. I thought to myself before leaving the room to prepare for my plan to retrieve my mate. Funny, it felt so right to call her that.

-Claudes POV-

Damn her. I glared at the wall of the kitchen in my ex masters manor. This newly made demon has begun to change me. I wasnt pleased with this. My love for her was unhealthy, yes, but a demon like me wasnt capable of feeling this. Especially so heavily. I had already established this to her, but maybe my way wasnt the right way. I had tried to force my love on her, and maybe she would give in and love me back, but maybe I had to try a gentler and longer approach. I sighed and raked my hand through my hair. Where was I to start? I wasnt familiar with the feeling of love so what was I to do? Take her for a stroll in the gardens? No. This was too much. I didnt have time to romance her. The mark I made on her would work soon enough and if she didnt behave at my meeting with satan tomorrow, then she would need to learn her lesson. I sat down and let out a frustrated growl, slamming a glass into the wall. I was going mad. They said there werent many ways to kill a demon, maybe a sword crafted for the specific purpose of killing us, but they never said love was deadly to us too. Maybe thats why we werent supposed to feel this.

I stood and walked around the manor until I found myself outside my room. I sat and listened for a while, hearing only _____s soft breathing and then I opened the door. I was met with the sight of ___ lying in my bed, her eyes closed. She was curled up surrounded by blankets. I sighed and walked up to the side of the bed to get a closer look. I saw a dark bruise on the side of her face and a pang of sadness hit me. Dry tears stained her cheeks and a fresh tear slid down. I had never regretted the things id done, but hitting her and causing her pain was something I did regret and i now realized it. I gently brushed away her tears. "Im sorry.." I said softly. She shifted causing me to remove my hand quickly. Her eyes fluttered open and I held my breath. She looked around the room until her eyes fell on me and she shot up and scooted away. "Claude?" She said breathlessly. I didnt know what to say. Damn this girl, she was making me second guess myself. She was making me soft. I would surely end soon because of her. "What are you doing here?" She asked. "I was checking on you." I answered truthfully. She watched for a moment, obviously confused. "Why?" She finally asked. I sighed and raked a stressed hand through my hair. "Im sorry." I said softly. "I know." She replied blankly. "No.. Im sorry. I have done awful things to you. I never knew what love was until now and I still dont know how I should react." She scoffed. "Maybe you shouldnt beat me senseless. Thats a start." I smiled for a moment before looking away. "Goodnight ____." I said and turned, walking away. "Wait!" She called. I paused and turned around. "Why?... why are you saying this now?" I thought for a moment before answering. "Because I know that the end is soon, and that is why I am saying this." She looked confused. "Then why not let me go now?" She questioned. "I am too selfish to. I love you far too much to simply give you away. To lose is one thing, but to lose you is another." She stared incredulously at me. "You dont know what love is. You have confused obsession with love and that is what will be your end, Claude. Not your love for me, and not your stupidity. You have already lost, and because you feel this way I am sorry for you." Her words cut through me like a knife.

I left that room with my thoughts and I knew that what I said was true. The end was near, but I was determined to make sure that it wasnt my end. I will show ___ that I can love her. That I do love her. She is wrong to think that I dont know it. I may not be experienced but I will be when this battle is finished. I was angry. I clenched my jaw, balled my fists at my sides. She will love me.