Tratie/never my forever

never be the same

KATIE

Last night, after dinner Travis told me that Connor was sleeping over and I couldn't come over. He didn't even kiss me goodbye or stay and talk longer than just telling me that. It was weird. After a restless night of sleep I went to the strawberry fields in the morning for the sunrise, expecting to see him there but he wasn't. The whole day, I never saw him and he never came to see me. I wanted to go to his cabin but what if Conor was there, how would I explain that? I shuffled mindlessly through classes and activities. I was so out of it on the climbing wall I almost had to go to the infirmary. Around two, I got a text. Weird, he never texts me he always comes to me in person. 

It reads: come by Zeus' fist in ten mins 

I respond: Okay, see you then ❤️

No response. I sigh and walk over to Zeus' fist. I see him standing there, his hair looking disheveled and wearing rumpled clothes. He looks like a mess, worse than I've ever seen him. I decide not to say anything, what kind of girlfriend would I be if I told him he looked rough right now. I walk over and go to hug him but he steps away.

This angers me. I roll my eyes, "Trav we have, what, a week left of the summer and you're being weird right now. Just tell me what's wrong. We have to spend what little time we have left, together."

Travis doesn't make eye contact, "We have to talk."

I groan, "What are we doing right now then, speaking in sign language?"

Travis said, "Katie don't."

Katie, not Katie-Kat or my Katie-Kat or Kit-Kat or any of his nicknames for me, Katie. Somethings wrong, I can feel it. I walk a little bit closer to him and reach out with my hand to touch his face he takes a step back. Did I do something?

I murmur, "Trav? Are you okay?"

Travis shakes his head, "I'm sorry but we need to stop doing," he gestures with his hands, "whatever this is."

I take a step back, what did he just say. My heart stops beating and I whisper, "What?"

Travis looks at a point in the distance past me, he still hasn't looked me in the eyes, "We need to stop."

I grow angry, "Stop what?"

Travis spits out, "Stop dating, stop seeing each other, stop talking to each other!"

I frown, "Are you breaking up with me?"

I will the tears to creep back into my eyes, I will not cry right now. I will not cry right now. 

Travis sighs, "Yes."

I grit my teeth, "Why. Give me a reason why."

"Because I have to."

I scream in frustration, "What do you mean 'you have to'. You make no sense!"

Travis looked down again, "I just have to."

I glare at him, even though he won't look at me, "You told me you'd never hurt me. You, you told me you loved me." 

Travis' face fell at this, "I meant it."

I laugh bitterly, "You meant it? You asshole! What are you doing? If you love me, why would you want to leave me!"

All the sudden, Travis' face contorted into something I couldn't make out. He said, harshly but softly, "You're right. I didn't."

Tears prickle at my eyes and I say, "I don't understand."

Travis screams, "Jesus Christ Katie what is there to understand! I never liked you. I was using you this whole time it was a fucking prank and you never noticed because you're too much of a fucking idiot. I never loved you because you're insufferable."