Saving Shoyo ✔︎

07//Nightmare//

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~Mor-chan

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Hinata POV

Shit. I managed to get Kenma to agree to broach the subject when we were alone, but I certainly didn't expect him to drag me into an adjoining room.

The setter levels a feline stare at me, looking down slightly. "Give me your wrists," he demands quietly, palm outstretched towards me.

"You already saw...," He ignores my mumbling, his hand still between us in a silent order.

I give in with a sigh. He's seen them already anyway, what could it hurt? Just as he did before, Kenma holds my arms like they're the wings of a small bird, too delicate to be jostled. No matter how gently he traces the ugly purplish patches, I still remember Oikawa's revolting touch.

I yank my trembling hand back abruptly, startling the boy. "S-sorry Kenma."

"It's no problem. Who did that to you?" I wince at his bluntness, memories surging up.

I clench my jaw, forcing the pain under as I let out a nervous laugh. "I just got into another fight with Kageyama is all."

"No, you didn't," I stiffen. "If that was the case everyone would've heard you two. Tell me the truth."

I can feel the anxiety choking away my air, pooling in my lungs. What am I supposed to say? Lying should be easier, but not when I'm being interrogated. Why does Kenma even care? I'd just be more of a nuisance if I told him. He doesn't really want to know.

"Shoyo. Ushijima is hurting you, isn't he?"

". . .HUH?" Kenma's assumption startles me out of my thoughts as I wave my arms franticly. "No, no no, that's not it-," The setter cuts me off.

"I saw all those glances you shot at him during the game. I also noticed how uncomfortable you were when you were being questioned. I'm not blind, Sho." 

I wish you were a little less 'all seeing'. I think ruefully. How am I supposed to clear this up? I can't tell him the truth, but I can't just let him think poorly of Ushiwaka.

"It's not like that, you have to believe me," I plead.

"Then who?"

I'm saved from having an answer by the someone's arrival. I almost sag in relief as Ushijima's frame fills the door. The ace's dark tourmaline eyes fix on us with evident worry before he strides to me, stopping at my back protectively.

I suck in a breath. Does he...care? Is he worried? I shake my head to dislodge the thought. He's just concerned about Kenma's opinion of him, that's all.

"It's up to Hinata to decide what to share and when to share it," Ushijima growls, staring down the cat-eyed setter. "Interrogating him, especially now, is certainly not going to help."

Kenma looks unconvinced. "Why should I take your word for it? For all I know, you're the one hurting him." 

"He's not," I say, discomfort levels rising to an undesirable degree. "There is...someone...who is hurting me but...it's not him. Ushijima's done nothing but help me. I owe him more than you could possibly imagine."

Kenma stills, fist clenching. He looks down, and I can see his throat bob painfully. "Why," The words are half-choked. "Why won't you tell me who? I care."

This new, rotten thing inside my stomach rears its head, hissing into my mind.

He doesn't care-why would he? Why would anybody? You're such a burden, at least pretend to take care of your own useless self.

The words make me want to vomit, want to hurl until that thing comes out of me. But I know it won't work. I don't answer, turning from the room in a panic. Vaguely I hear Ushijima tell the setter to give me time, but I'm gone before I can hear the rest.

I only take six steps out of earshot before the fear kicks in. I'm alone right now.

There's a hand on my shoulder and I almost scream, almost lash out, before I catch sight of Ushijima hovering over me. "Come on, I'll walk you to your dorm."

I don't say anything, quietly clinging onto the powerful ace. I almost, almost feel safe. When he leaves me at my dorm I can't help but wish he wouldn't go. But I can't ask him that. I've taken up so much of his time already.

"Thank you. For everything today." He was just doing it out of pity, don't flatter yourself. 

I push the voice away, just for now. The ace just nods, briefly placing his large hand over my mop of hair before turning back the way he came. I touch my orange locks in response before hurrying inside.

I wished for peace, curled up on my pallet, but I'm not that lucky. I grimace in my sleep as the nightmare floods my senses; every touch, word and smell from earlier today being shoved to the forefront of my mind as everyone leaves. They all walk away from me as I sob, buried in feelings I'll die before I share.

It's not really a choice. They'll kill me either way.

I must've been hyperventilating in my sleep because soon the dream blackens at the edges before slipping away entirely. I can't say I'm sad to see it go.

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A/n

Sowwy this chapter is short!! I have fluff plans for the next chapter (finally, you guys deserve a break) ^-^

Also, I didn't want to put it all in this chapter because I like to keep all my chapters around the same length.

Also thanks again for all the support♥

ALSO: READ MY NEW BNHA VIGILANTE DEKU FF!!! It's called Mahi! It's only two parts so far but they're each pretty long and I have  b i g   p l a n s 

Hehe thanks ^^

Sayonara!

~Mor-chan