SOULMATE | HYEWON | EDITING

twenty-five.

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"san? can i come in? it's me chaewon." san looked at his door. a part of him wanted him to tell her to go away but at the looks of it, chaewon was all he had left. "yeah..you can." chaewon opened the door and walked into the room. she went over and sat next to him. "is hyejoo still here?" chaewon nodded. "yeah she's downstairs with juyeon. they'll be fine though...even though they don't particularly get along." san chuckled at that comment.

chaewon smiled. "are you okay? be honest." san's smile dropped. "if i'm being honest no. it's like i don't even recognize myself anymore. i want to be strong about this whole situation. i don't want my friends to be worried about me, i don't want woo to worry, and most importantly i don't want you to worry. you're my younger sister and my only sister. i want to be strong and i want to be the one consoling you but instead it's the other way around.

i have so many emotions that are built up inside of me and i don't even know how to control all of it. and seeing mom just made everything worse. yeosang told me that it would be good for me to see her you know? so that i would get some sort of closure or whatever and i believed that i really did. but the second i walked in there and sat down and when brung her to the booth. i just got so mad. i wanted to hurt her. and i know she's our mother and i can't say things like that but i wanted to hurt her so badly.

i was always closer to dad. when you were born mother kind of neglected me. she would always forget about me and i remember hating you for it but dad told me that i shouldn't hate you and that one day i had to protect you. he never told me from who or from what but he told me i had to protect you and i'm assuming it's from your little wolf girlfriend hyejoo downstairs." chaewon giggled.

"he loved us so much. i know you weren't able to see it when you were younger but he loved us more than mom did. mom loved us but...definitely not as much as dad. he would do everything and anything for us. he was the perfect parent anyone could ever ask for and now he's gone all because of mom. and i know she said she killed him because he was going to kill her first but i don't know if i can trust her at this point. too many hurt feelings.

i just feel like i'm...alone. like i know i have you but i'm truly alone." chaewon shook her head. "you are not alone. i'm not going to let you say that. you have me, you have jiyoon, you have juyeon, you have wooyoung, you have your friends and hell you even have my friends! you have so much people that love and care for you so don't you dare say that you're alone. it hurts me to hear you say that."

san wiped the tears that were running down his face. chaewon grabbed his hand. "i'm not going to allow you to think like that. i'm not going to let you think you're alone because i'm going to be here. i'm not going to leave you behind alright? i'll be here with you forever." san rest his head on her shoulder. "arent you doomed to death by default though?" chaewon flicked his forehead. "i'm still not going to leave you okay?" san smiled. "you promise wonie?" chaewon nodded. "promise sannie."

"san? sannie? it's me wooyoung." chaewon and san got up from the bed. "well that's your boyfriend. i better go back to hyejoo." san nodded. chaewon opened the door, letting wooyoung walk in. chaewon smiled at the both of them and walked out. wooyoung looked at san with concerned eyes. "are you okay? i didn't know what level of sadness you were at so i brought you some of your favorite foods and candies and a couple of your favorite movies that we could maybe watch-."

san pulled the younger into a kiss. wooyoungs eyes widened, putting his hands on his waist kissing him back deeply. san pulled away, resting his head on his forehead. "i love you, you didn't have to do this." wooyoung smiled, holding him closer. "i love you too and of course i do. i don't want you to be sad." wooyoung said bring his hands up to his face and cupping them. san pouted. "come on. let's sit on the bed. i would like some cuddles please." wooyoung chuckled. "cuddles coming up my love."