Still Broken

Chapter 3-Im Not Okay(I Promise)

Song is I'm Not Okay by My Chemical Romance. There is cussing in the song so be warned.
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The question threw me off. Am I okay? It was hard to process everything that Nemesis said to me. It was hard not to take what she said seriously. So when Annabeth asked me if I was ok, I panicked.

"I-I'm fine." I told her while smiling. I knew it was futile. She knew my fake smile. We spent two months trying to erase it. And we did. But now it's back, just from a conversation that lasted maybe 10 minutes. All that work of trying to love myself and be a better person and be happy was gone just like that.

" Leo don't lie to me. What happened?" Annabeth asked still holding on to me so I wouldn't run away. She was too smart.

"It's nothing just drop it ok?" I told her. I needed to leave before I freaked out and she was caught in the aftermath. She let go of my arm somewhat hesitantly.

" We will talk about this later. Right now you gotta fix the ship before the Romans find us." She looked like she didn't want to leave but if I didn't fix the ship then we'd be dead before we left the U.S. I nodded and walked away with the supplies in my belt.

I worked in silence for a while. I was still trying to think through what Nemesis said to me. She said that I was better off as my fake self. People hated the real me. Just my luck! I'm finally happy and have people who care about me and then I go and blow up a city!

I sunk to my knees letting my tools drop down. I put my hands on my face as I started sobbing. Tears streaked through the grime from the machines and made lines on my face. I sat there shaking and sobbing for a couple of minutes, just letting out roar of pent up emotions. Then I wiped off my face and stood up slowly. I took deep breaths to compose myself. Then I slipped the tools back in my belt and walked out to set out again.

When I walked up to the deck I saw that everyone except for Piper and Jason were up there. "Everything's patched up and we can set off again." I said while smiling. I walked over to the steering and checked over Festus to make sure there was nothing I missed. Then with a heavy grunt and a bumpy takeoff we were in the sky again. I sighed quietly as I steered the ship back to the east coast.

After a couple minutes I felt someone come up behind me. I quickly turned and saw it was Annabeth. "Hey we need to talk." I knew this was coming. I knew we were close and I didn't want to lie to her but I wasn't ready to tell people about what that woman said to me. It hit too close to home and I didn't want Annabeth to think that about me too.

"What did you need to talk about?" I asked her innocently. I looked over at her and she gave me the look. The look that says if you keep playing games with me I'll break your fingers. "Ok I know but trust me I'm okay."

"I don't believe that for a second. You know I heard you in the engine room. I was worried and went to check on you and I heard you crying. I won't say anything to anyone else but you need to tell me what's going on." I stared at her in horror. She heard me. She knows that I'm not okay. Well that's fine. I don't mind. It doesn't mean she needs to know what the vile goddess said to me.

" I don't know why you'd still trust me after what happened to New Rome. Why do you even care? It's not like your really my friend. You hate me just like everyone else.  Besides I'm taking time away from your boyfriend. You haven't seen him in months so go spend time with him." I'd never seen Annabeth so torn before. So conflicted between her boyfriend of me.

"Leo I don't hate you. Why would you say that? And I have a feeling that whatever happened at New Rome wasn't entirely human. Something happened there but I'm not sure what. What happened to make you think like that?" I stared at her like a fish, opening and closing my mouth, searching for something to say.

"I-" suddenly the ship jerked forward as something flew against it. I looked around and tried to see what the problem was but I couldn't see anything. The ship lurched forward again and sent everyone stumbling forward to right themselves. I then saw some shimmering in the air. Something invisible was brushing against the ship and making it rock back and forth. (This part isn't canon just so you know)

I noticed the same cold presence as before when I attacked New Rome. The try I got that possessed me. It suddenly flew up and straight towards me. "No don't sto-"I was cut off as the creature flew into me and I lost control of my body. My body turned towards everyone and grinned wickedly. Annabeth stared in fear as she understood what was happening.

"Ah this body is very nice indeed. I wonder what destruction I'll cause today!" My hands lit up with flames while looking at the other members of the Argo II. Then I started throwing fire at my friends.

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Merry Christmas! Hehehee. I know that I'm changing the story but it's my story so whatever. Hopefully this doesn't deter anyone from it. I hope you enjoyed! See you next week