Whats Wrong With me

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hey guys imfinlly updating .  I'll probably  make the remaining chapters a little shorter than the others but I'm still gonna write a bunch . Hope you enjoy .

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- Vic P.O.V. -

I dont know what was wrong with me . I just got so mad at Kellin all of a sudden I mean he didn't do anything but ask what was wrong . I sighed as I walked back to my house . This is the third day I've been without Kellin and it's killing me being away for him but I can't tell him about the dreams . I mean he'll call me crazy for sure . I can't risk him hating me more . I haven't really slept because every time I close my eyes I see the melting faces of everyone like in my dream . It's haunting me and I don't know why. Maybe I should talk to kellin . I don't know .

Everything is so difficult now . I mean my dad hates me since my mom died . I'm in love with only person who's ever been nice nice to me and I could've ruined it . Ugh I'm such a screw up .

I trudged into my house dreading seeing my dad . But I didnt. Thank god maybe he was away again . I'm not sure exactly but oh well now I can be alone . Maybe I should text Kellin ...... apologize for everything . For just being me . Yeah I should . Hopefully I won't make everything worse .

I pulled out my phone and sighed but typed the message anyway.

V : " I'm so sorry . Please forgive me . I don't know what I was thinking . I was  bitch and I'm so sorry for everything . I'm sorry for messing everything up and I'm sorry for being afraid . "

K : " I'm not sure ...... you were so mad and I was just trying to help . Maybe we should break up ..... "

V : " WHAT NO ? please no I'm so sorry for everything .please I'm so sorry. Sometimes I don't know what to do with you or with myself .......

But I don't know what I'd do without you No matter how either of us feel or how separated we seem . I'll always love you and you'll always be mine . If I could spend only one more second with you I would give up everything Just to have that one second . Please Kellin I'm so sorry ill explain everything . "

K : " that's beautiful ..... no one has ever been that nice to me or cared that much but I don't know ..... let's just talk on Saturday and I'll think ok .... "

V : " Ok ..... I love you Kellin bye "

After that I got no response . I cried myself to sleep that night . I just knew Kellin hates me . He'll never take me back I just knew it . I got out my notebook and looked at some of my old lyrics " my love for you was bulletproof but your the one who shot me " . I couldn't help it I just threw my notebook across the room and busted into tears again .

I felt the warm tears streaming down me face and my pain building up inside . I felt so weak . I felt as if I was breaking after being repaired for a short time . It was to much .

I walked into my bathroom and looked in my drawer for something particular and I found it soon .

Hello old friend .

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DON'T KILL ME PLEASE . this is just the idea I had for this part .

I hope your liking the story and if you , you should check out my other ones. I know I said I was gonna update this tomorrow in something I updated earlier but my band meeting was shorter than I thought. I'm sorry for being all over the place but next week I'll be updating normally again unless something happens . Hopefully not

Anyway for now enjoy the stories , I love you all and Byeeeee

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