You are my light // Jacklyn ff

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Yallllll I am so sorry... uhhhhh yeah I really just stopped writing this like that...
But I feel bad because I hate it when that happens so if anybody still reads this... this is probably the final chapter
I am so fucking sorry oh my... oh wtf I hate myself for this anyways it's been like a year or longer wtf

*the story ended with jacks dad saying he had to move schools and Jack breaking down over it btw*

There I was, sitting on the floor next to my door, tears non stop falling to the ground. I really thought I had found happiness this time, I actually did. I knew I wasn't lucky, I knew the universe didn't work great for and with me in the past but surely it would let me be happy this time right?

Yeah, this one time I actually wanted to stay.

"Jack, what's wrong?" I heard somebody say. I didn't answer the question my brain was running a thousand miles per hour and my vocal cords felt like they'd been ripped out of my throat. I felt dead.

"Jack? What happened?" That voice again or rather that person. I looked up at the doorway and there stood Andy, looking at me worriedly. I couldn't speak, I couldn't even keep my head up anymore the only thing that was working in my body was the ability to make tears and shed them. Those salty motherfuckers just kept rolling down my face, kind of like a natural highlighter highlighting all the shit that was wrong.

Andy closed the door and sat next to me, not saying anything. I think that's what I needed, just some company you know. We sat there for a full half hour before going back inside, me still not having explained why I was crying so ugly.

"Where'd you guys go?" That blonde angel asked us. "Just, just needed some air. I felt very overwhelmed after our 'coming out' I guess." "Yeah and I could help him a bit because well, I've been through it before so yeah." Andy said whilst we were both taking a seat with our proclaimed partners.

The rest of the night was fun, it really was I genuinely love it here. I went to sleep with Brook in my arms and the smell of his shampoo in my nose. The only reason I could sleep soundly, the only reason I made unforgettable friends and memories here. That fucking smile of his, it was not healthy the way I was attracted to him that first day of class.

I love seeing Brook sleep, he nuzzles into me like a cute koala bear. I love seeing Brook laugh, when he does, he shines brighter than the northern star. You know that star that shines the brightest, yeah.
His green eyes which I got fucking lost in like a hundred times. I love everything about him, the way he cares so much for his family and friends. I've never genuinely felt so happy and so in love before.

And now I have to leave everything behind.

How am I even going to tell everybody. How am I going to tell Brook that I'm leaving, that I'm moving across the globe. It will break him, his last break up was bad already but now ours just after we got together.

Maybe it won't break him, I mean we've only been dating for like what, a week? Yeah, I'm not that important in his life right. Yeah, maybe I should just leave. I won't have to explain and since I've just entered his life I can easily be forgotten.
I think that's what's best for him, for us. And this way I also don't have to be confronted by his friends for breaking this relationship and possibly his heart.

It's a win-win situation (Dong Sicheng?)

I carefully stand up and call my dad. "Please pick me up right now dad? I want to leave." "Oh son, are you okay? I'm in England so you're lucky but I'll be there in three hours. We'll go back to Ireland together and prepare for our move to Japan. I'm glad you came around love." "Sure just, please hurry I'm tired."

I start to pack my stuff, or well yeah my clothes. Somehow I managed to not have any physical memories from this place, I never took photos, I don't have any tickets from something. Maybe that's better tho, maybe that will help me forget about this place.

I stand by the foot of my bed looking at that sleeping koala bear. He's so adorable I want to squish him.
I'm going to miss him so fucking much but it's for the better this way. He will move on from this, I know it.

I take a picture of Brook. My first and last picture of him. It is therefore also my best picture of him.
My only memory of this place next to the ones in my mind. The ones that I will forget completely in a few years. I write something on a piece of paper just so Brook isn't scared that I was kidnapped or something. Just so he knows that I left and am safe with my parents, so he knows that this is what's best for him.

I wouldn't know if this is what is best for me. But that doesn't matter, the only thing that matters is Brook. If he's okay, I'm okay. That's how the world works am I right?

My phone rings and that's the sign my dad is at the gates waiting for me. I walk out of my room and without looking back I walk downstairs, maybe a few of those wet balls leave my looking devices again but I won't admit it.

This is it.

This is the end. The end of my happiness and the end of my story with Brook.

This is the end of something that I later remember as my biggest regret and greatest love.

I kind of forgot that jack was the main character of this story maybe.... I thought it was as Brook hihi
Yall idk if this is the ending you guys wanted but... it was something that was in my mind like how to end it.
I also thought about like that they would see each other in a random city again and then leave it as an open ending but that would mean I could write a second part and I really can't.
I've have departed from the roadtrip fandom just like the band has broken up... oop-

Btw I knew Blair was a shit manager what the actual fuck. He is Barf just Barf Barf Barf Barf Barf Barf.

Oh and I got a septum piercing now yas

Anyways this was it for me I guess

Thanks for reading this story and have a great future
Love yall pretty as motherfuckers yall beautiful queens and kings and royals

Peace!