Mcsm Oneshots{On Hold}

Some Friends.

A bit of angst before Christmas oneshots come out! :). Uses female Jesse.
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Jesse stared out her window at the cloudy night sky. The Order Hall was silent, Jesse now being the only occupant.

"Why did they go? Was it my fault?"

Petra had left right after the Admin attack. Lukas hadn't been around, busy with his new book. Axel and Olivia were in a relationship, and claimed they never had time to hang out with Jesse because of 'work'

She sighed, slowly getting up and walking to the kitchen.

"Why do I even bother? I doubt anyone would even notice my absence."

Grabbing a knife, Jesse stared at it for a minute before walking back to her room. Snatching a piece of paper from the floor and finding a pencil, she began writing.

"By the time you read this, I will be gone. None of you ever come around anymore. I break my neck trying to make it to stuff you all want to do, but none of you show up when I make plans.

So this is a final goodbye. Don't bother crying. I know you'll use this as an excuse to not come here anymore.

I'm done waiting for people."

Jesse set the paper on the desk and stood up, staring at her disheveled form in the mirror. Unbrushed hair, eyes red from crying.

"At least I'll be with Reuben again." She smiled a bit at the thought.

Aiming the knife at her heart, Jesse took a deep breath.

"Thanks for nothing, guys."

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Radar stepped inside the Order Hall, surprised by the silent chill.

"Why is it so cold?! She hates winter." He slowly walked through the hallways, trying to find Jesse. She hadn't been seen for a while, and people were getting worried.

"Jesse?" He called softly, receiving only an echo in return. Radar stopped outside her closed door, wondering if entering would be a good idea.

A sob from inside drove him to open the door, just in time to surprise Jesse into not driving the knife into her chest.

"Jesse. Put the knife down." Radar said softly, holding out his hand.

"Why should I? Nobody would notice if I -" Another sob cut Jesse off.

"You know that's not true. Give me the knife. Please." Another tremor shook Jesse, but she handed him the knife and collapsed onto her bed. Radar put the knife in his inventory and sat next to her.

"I don't understand. I try so hard and yet they never want to hang out anymore." She sobbed.

"They? You mean the rest of the Order?" Jesse nodded, wiping away some of the tears.

"I break my back trying to make it to stuff Axel and Olivia plan, but they never bother when I make plans." Radar listened as she continued to rant, offering small words of comfort when she paused.

"Well, what about Lukas?" He asked when Jesse finished with Axel and Olivia.

"He... I understand why he's not around, but he could at least give a call, or something."

Voices echoed thought the Order Hall. The others had shown up. Jesse stiffened. Radar put a hand on her shoulder.

"I'll talk to them." Jesse put a hand on his arm.

"Can - can you send Lukas here? I wanna talk to him alone.." Radar nodded and left, following the voices to the Treasure Room.

"Radar! Good to see you. Is Jesse here?" Olivia asked, glancing behind him.

"She's in her room. Jesse asked for you Lukas." The blonde nodded and left.

"What? What's going on?" Axel exclaimed.

"Yeah, why can't we see Jesse?" Olivia demanded.

"Oh, now you care about seeing her. That's rich."

"I - I don't understand." Olivia stuttered.

"Jesse just tried to kill herself -"

"What!?" She screeched. "Oh my Notch, let us -" Radar raised a hand.

"You didn't let me finished. She tried to kill herself because of you two."

"That's absurd! She'd never do that!" Axel snapped. Radar glared at him.

"Oh really? She breaks her neck trying to make it to stuff you guys plan. Tell me, when was the last time you bothered to show up here. Or call her for that matter." He snapped back.

"I - we have towns to run, remember? We're not gonna make it to every -" Radar cut Axel off.

"Bootown doesn't really require much attention. And I find it amazing how you claim to have time but then cancel at the last second." 

"Look, we're sorry, okay? Just let us talk to her." Olivia pleaded. Radar's lip curled in disgust . 

"Oh sure. You can apologize. But I bet after a month you'll go back to what you've been doing. so just get the fuck out." Their eyes widened in shock, but the two walked out with h their heads hung. 

"Some friends you are." Radar said right before the Treasure Hall for closed. Olivia flinched, but neither tried to get the last word in. 

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Merry Christmas guys!! I ran out of ideas for the end. Plus it's really early and my tablets being a bitch. 

Hope you have a good day!