Unrequited desires

Acquaintance

She was a figure of beauty. That I always knew. And whether I accepted it or not my heart skipped a little every so often when my eyes would meet her's. Along with a feeling of confusion and unfamiliarity. Never more than a quick encounter as she would flash a polite smile and return to whatever it was that she was occupied with. It was a feeling that I had felt before, but never really so obviously with a female. Of course like many people my age my sexuality had been in question. But it didn't feel like that. When I looked at her and felt a flutter in my stomach it didn't cross my mind to question it like it did with other girls. I felt like I was looking at someone I was sure about, yet I knew nothing about her or who she was. All I knew is that her name was Odessa Lowestien.

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Throughout the summer I would see her with friends at the mall or parks near my house and sometimes she would say hi or we would exchange a couple of words but nothing more. Our friend groups were fairly close so it was often we would end up making small talk. And even though I'm not one to like small talk and I had a feeling she was the same, I listened a little closer and payed a little more attention to what she was saying when she talked about small almost insignificant things. And over time we did grow to be a bit more than acquaintances. She was nice and outgoing and talking to her felt like talking to someone I had known for a long time. I am a relatively social person so talking to people wasn't all that hard for me but in a conversation with someone new there is always the thought or concern of running out of things to say and having a sort of awkward pause before finding something new to talk about. But it wasn't like that with her. Which brought a sense of noticeable comfort to our conversation.

It wasn't until months after knowing Odessa that we decided to get together to hang out just the two of us. Of course hanging out with someone new was always a little intimidating but this time I both felt extremely nervous and at the same time not nervous at all. Like we had hung out many times just the two of us. As I was getting ready I paid extra attention to the way my hair looked and how much perfume I was wearing and things like that. Only slightly knowing of what I was doing. And with that I clasped my crystal necklace around my neck as well as slipping rings on almost every other finger. I didn't know what we were going to be doing so on the way to my destination I racked my brain of things she might have in mind. And what she meant when she said it was a surprise in response to me asking where we were going earlier that morning. But nothing came to mind. Sighing at my failed thoughts I cranked the radio up and rolled down my windows with only 10 minutes to my destination circled on the map in my passenger seat.

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I have finally thought of something to write about!!😌 I take a good amount of inspiration from GoldenBoy and Core so if you like those you'll like this. My friend even told me they picture Odessa as Celeste and Iris as Camellia. Sooo do with that information what you wish.