golden boys

chapter 5

Harrys POV  

After last night everything was okay again- but the words

If I could fly I'd be comin' right back home to you I think I might Give up everything, just ask me to 

They kept floating in my head and I couldn't help thinking just how much they mean. Like I would follow Lou into hell and I know he would do the same for me but everything's so complicated with Simon and I don't know. I just don't know if I could write another song for Lou and get away with it. Maybe if I said it was about Kendall, oh yeah she's my fake girlfriend. Simon set both Lou and I up with them to draw attention away from Lou and me. Which really sucks cause all I wanna do is be able to walk out onto the street holding the love of my life hand and not have to deal with the backlash. Simon says that being in love with Lou is unnatural and needs to be stopped. I just don't understand why he hates it so much, gay marriage was legalized like three years ago. 

" Hazza" Niall came in and sat on the bunk opposite of me. " You wanna maybe go catch a movie later with Payno and I? Zayn and Tommo are writing all-day so I doubt they would wanna come but I gotta get out of this bus." " What movie Nialler? " " Erm haven't gotten that far yet but I'm sure there's something good  there's this movie that came out like a few weeks ago it called Don't Worry Darling- it supposed  to be pretty good and scary" " Uhh yea, wanna leave in an hour" 

" Yep sounds good I'll go tell Payno" I laid back down while Niall was leaving. I hate scary movies I'm more of a rom-com type of guy. Maybe I could convince Lou to come after all he does like scary movies. Most of the time I have to beg him to watch rom-coms like The Notebook. That one is my favorite- the way love grew between two people who couldn't be together. I know the feeling too well. 

" Hey Lou, you wanna go to the movies with Payno, Niall, and I. They wanna see this movie called Don't Worry Darling and I guess it's supposed to be scary and you know how much I hate scary movies." Louis starts laughing and gives Harry a kiss on the check. " Oh Hazza, I would love to but I'm supposed to write with Zayn all-day" " Oh please Lou " " Okay Okay fine but you owe me" " Okay come on we have to leave soon- tell Zayn to please Lou"  I basically start jumping up and down with joy because now I can just hide behind Lou the whole time. 

" Hey what do I owe you anyway" " Don't know yet Haz haha I'll think about it" " Erm okay Lou" 

Like I predicted that movie was so scary and I mean way scarier than I thought. I basically hide behind Lou the whole time and I ended up falling asleep leaning on his shoulder. When the movie was done we ended up getting some burgers and fries and then Zayn and Lou went to write some more.  I decided to do some writing for myself I wanted to try and finish the song even if it might not get released. 

If I could fly
I'd be comin' right back home to you
I think I might
Give up everything, just ask me to. 

For your eyes only. I'll show you my heart. And forget who you are. I'm missing half of me

That's as far as I got maybe it will come to me later or something. they always come back eventually. As I was about to go to the kitchen to make some tea Louis comes in practically storming and I see that he had been crying. " Lou, what's wrong babe? Are you okay?" " Haz- I can't do it, I can't do this anymore." " Do what Lou?" As I went to hug him he pulled away from me. And I walked backward in shock. " Lou, what's wrong??" Starting to sound more worried with every word. " I'm sorry but I can't do it" " DO WHAT LOUIS?!? " 

" I can't be your boyfriend anymore. Haz I'm sorry but I can't put you at risk. I'm sorry." When lou said those last 2 words he practically fell apart on the inside. And as for me, I'm crying " What do you mean put me at risk Louis I love you." " Lou? " silence surrounded us and not the comfortable kind. "Louis I love you" 

"Haz I'm sorry" Louis ran out of the bus and I just stood in shock, frozen with tears falling down my face. " Did this just happen" I repeated to myself over and over again until I was practically on the ground balling my eyes out. I love him and I didn't bother following him I could move even if I wanted to. The only thing I could do was fall to the floor.

" It couldn't have it couldn't have." Niall walks in to see the tragic mess of my life, the kettle on the stove screaming because it's ready, it has been for the past 10 minutes. My cup with the open chamomile tea bag inside of it. And me balled up on the floor balling. 

" Harry, what's wrong? " Niall runs to my side and tries to get me off the floor but eventually gives up and sits next to me offering a hug. I took it almost immediately balling into his white  shirt. Niall has always been the one to comfort me when I was upset besides Louis. I am the youngest in the band and since I only have an older sister, Niall is the older brother I wished I had.  

"Hazza, what's wrong" 

" He broke up with me" the words become more and more painful. 

" He broke up with me Niall" 

Niall's grip tightens on my back.