golden boys

chapter 8

Harry's POV

Are you kidding me? is he for real right now? After everything he did to me, he wants me to just hear him out. 

He broke me, the night he broke up with me he basically took my heart out of my chest ripped it into half, and threw it in the garbage. And he wants to talk to me about it?!? I can barely stand to look at him or hear him sing right now how am I suppose to let him justify why he broke my heart? I mean since that night Niall told me that he told Payno and that later that night after I went to bed, Zayn and Lou came back and they told him whatever Lou had to say. Niall doesn't want to tell me what the reason he broke up with me is though he keeps telling me that it's not his place. Which annoys the shit out of me but I guess he has a point. And now here we are a few weeks later and Lou wants to tell me why he did it? I don't know I mean I miss him I do but I'm just so mad at him. 

" Fine meet me at 8 at the hotel." " Ok, wait really" "Well unless you don't want to" "No, no I do thank you, Harry." As I'm walking away I can tell that Lou is trying to contain his happiness- I guess he must be excited or something. I mean I have been kind of dodging him but he deserves it.

By the time 8 rolls around Louis was already here. I let him in and he started to explain what happened. I started to cry and he gave me a tissue. We talked for a long time and I forgave him for what he did because he was only trying to protect me. I apologized to him too since I had been dodging him. 

" I'm sorry again Harry " " I'm sorry to Lou and also do you think maybe you could call me Hazza again? I miss you calling me it to be honest?" " Of course Haz, it was weird calling you Harry but I have a serious question" " What is it Lou " " Do you think we could be boyfriends again and just keep it between the 5 of us? " I would love that Lou" 

We cuddled for a little bit then we turned on The Notebook because why not. " Lou we have to take down Simon you know. He can't keep controlling us" " I know but that's for tomorrow, today lets just enjoy today okay babe?" "okay" We ended up finishing the movie and we fell asleep in each other's arms. 

When we got back on the bus the next day to head to the next show, the rest of the boys were happy to hear that we made up and are a couple again. They decided that they wanted to give us some alone time before the show on the bus. So Lou and I took it to our advantage. Don't get me wrong we have had sex before but there was something different this time. We went to the back of the bus and started to make out and of course, Louis gave me some hickeys- he says he likes to mark what is his and I mean I can't complain.  I do the same to him and he enjoys it. We ended up doing it a couple of times in various places on the bus; afterward, we took a shower together and I used the watermelon shampoo Lou got me. 

" Lou, I have shampoo in my eyes can you let me rinse it out before you give me another hickey?" " Well, what's the fun in that Haz?" We both laughed and he did not stop but I didn't mind that much. When we got out he saw me looking at all the marks that he made. About ten dark purple ones all over but most of them were on my neck. " You like them, I'm pretty proud of them if I'm being honest. " He gave me the biggest smirk and I tackled him so I could give him a taste of his own medicine. Right when we were getting dressed the rest of the boys came back. 

"Are you guys good? I don't want to see anything" Payno said laughing along with Niall and Zayn. "Were good guys" when we walked out to the kitchen all I heard were the rest of the boys including Louis snickering. " What" " Did you get attacked by a shark or something you got like 20 purple circles on your chest alone?" Niall said laughing " Yea I did actually the shark's name starts with an L and ends in Ouis Tomlinson. Don't worry though I gave him some back." Harry starts pointing to areas where he gave Louis hickeys starting from the neck down " woah woah, we don't need to know every detail" Payno said sitting down at the table. Louis and I look at each other and start laughing and purposely started to make out in front of him just to see his face. " Can I just enjoy my tea in peace please you two" " Well Lou and I will consider it right babe" "Right- after careful consideration we decided that that would not be possible at this time" Louis and I started making out again "oh my god you two" " okay okay Payno were done" "oh thank the lord" the rest of the boys start laughing and we all start talking about tomorrows show. 

We ended up falling asleep together in my bunk because well Lou is a bit of a slob and since we weren't talking I couldn't tell him to clean up his area,  don't worry though I will handle that tomorrow. " I love you Lou " " I love you too my Hazza " 

The next morning I woke up with me on Lou's chest. "Goodmorning Haz" we kissed " Good morning Lou, so you know how I have been working on that song"  " Yea babe, did you finish it" " Yeah I think so I finished it while we weren't talking do you wanna hear it?" " Of course I do luv " " Okay I'll get the keyboard so I can show you, no judgment yet I haven't perfected the way I want it to sound." "Okay, Hazza I'm sure it's amazing." As I start to play, the words just kind of start to flow out. 

If I could fly
I'd be comin' right back home to you
I think I might
Give up everything, just ask me toPay attention, I hope that you listen
'Cause I let my guard down
Right now I'm completely defenselessFor your eyes only
I'll show you my heart
For when you're lonely
And forget who you are
I'm missing half of me
When we're apart
Now you know me
For your eyes only
For your eyes onlyI've got scars
Even though they can't always be seen
And pain gets hard
But now you're here and I don't feel a thingPay attention, I hope that you listen
'Cause I let my guard down
Right now I'm completely defenselessFor your eyes only
I'll show you my heart
For when you're lonely
And forget who you are
I'm missing half of me
When we're apart
Now you know me
For your eyes only
For your eyes onlyI can feel your heart inside of mine
I feel it, I feel it
I've been goin' out of my mind
I feel it, I feel it
Know that I'm just wastin' time
And I hope that you don't run from meFor your eyes only
I'll show you my heart
For when you're lonely
And forget who you are
I'm missing half of me
When we're apart
Now you know me
For your eyes onlyFor your eyes only
I'll show you my heart
For when you're lonely
And forget who you are
I'm missing half of me
When we're apart
Now you know me
For your eyes only
For your eyes only
For your eyes only

In all honestly, I started to cry while singing it and I saw Lou tear up too. " Well do you like it Lou? I kind of wrote how I felt when we weren't talking and just how hard it was you know without you" " Haz that was beautiful I missed you so much, we have to show the boys someday." " Agreed but for right now it's for you and me. I want to release it when Simon doesn't have control over us okay?" " Okay Operation take down Simon but we have to fill the boys in" " They're already in, they were just waiting for us to talk again Lou" " Well that's one check off the list but we gotta come up with a code name for it."