Peaky blinders imagines

All i do is drink whiskey and say bad words last part

Recap
I loved him
All the bad words and whiskey
(Y/N) POV
There a time in a woman's life where she needs her mother the most and mine was now.
I loved Tommy but was married to James.That stupid word again that made my belly bubble with anticipation.I was going to tell him  tonight ,Although it wasn't quite clear which him it was I could be saying I love you or I could have been saying I hate you.
Tommy's POV
(Y/N):Tommy I don't like to she's either.
I was shocked at her sudden confidence boost and that smile that played on her lips when she said that sentence. It was her calm tone.My eyes drifted to the large painting on the wall Graces eyes looked back at mine.I felt that pain that was everlasting but not when (Y/N) was here.
It felt like I was free from everything where she was underneath me and her lips on mine. I felt alive I was constantly chasing that feeling.The guilt then started to kick in I promised Grace I wouldn't love anyone again. Here I was nursing the glass of whiskey. 
I loved her
I needed her
(Y/N) POV
As soon as I was home I started dialling my mothers number and thanks to a miracle she picked up.
(Y/N):I'm in love mother but not with James.
Mothers name: (y/n) If it is that blue eyed devil.....I swear it took you long enough.
A smile came to my lips as I thought about his eyes sometimes they felt like I was drowning in a never ending cycle but today it felt like the cycle stopped and I was at the shore able to breath.
Mother: (Y/N) are you still there?
The door slammed which stopped me mid sentence.
(Y/N):I have to go.I love you we will speak to you tomorrow.
Mother:I love you darling and remember to stay safe and follow your heart.
My heart was racing expecting the worse but instead I was met with his blue eyes.I sigh of relief filled the room I walked over to him slowly calculating my next move. I had never been this close to him In these circumstances I knew I loved him and befor I thought it was lust. A simle playing on both of our lips the same idea In our heads he grabbed my hips and pulled me closer.our heavy breathing filled the silent room we stayed like this what felt like for hours but in reality wasn't more than a minute.
(Y/N),Tommy: I love you
We then leaned in again and that's when our bubble was broke my front door screeched open.
I was met with Thomas back where as Tommy was met with a red faced James.
I was completely frozen loud shouts could be heard but I never understood a word. And then suddenly vases was getting thrown in our direction but before it could make a direct impact a bang could be heard.neither Tommy nor James or myself were hurt but the canvas painting about 3cm away from James he looked as shocked as I felt.
Tommy:I suggest you leave before there's more damage.
James:I don't know why you think that this whore will be any youse to you she's disgusting look at her.
(Y/N):I have had enough of you James I can't do it anymore and how dare you call me a whore when you've slept with the whole of small Heath.....
Get out of my house and never come back.
Tears where rolling down my face a mixture of relief and happiness. I had finally said what o should have years ago. A small steady breath was released
James:Don't come crawling back to me when he gets bored of you.
With a final slam of the door Tommy grabbed me and pulled me into his tight embrace.I sobbed into him.
2 years later
I was stood in the betting office talking to poll with Charlie on my hip.
Polly:so how are you?you look more stunning than ever. Glowing
(Y/N):I'm good poll me and Charlie are going the market to grab some stuff for the house.
Polly suddenly let grabbed me.
(Y/N):polly?!
Polly:how many weeks late are you
(Y/N):pardon... about 6 weeks but it could be because of stress just moving in.
Polly:now I never took you as a silly girl get checked out as soon as.
I nodded timidly
8 months later
Tommy had hold of his first born daughter in his hands.
Tommy:Maria  Shelby your the most beautiful baby girl in the world look just like your mother eh.

I loved all of his bad words and the taste of whiskey on his lips.