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he and i

i'm addicted to the demo version of psycho so blame that. depictions of stalking and rated spg could be read. beware. (y'all gonna skip this part, why did I even bother to put this.)

What we have was different

-Knives, they hurt, but seeing her lifeless eyes incite more pain than any wound at that time. He wouldn't answer and she, laughing till sobbing, would continue murmur questions. Why wouldn't he reply? He doesn't know. It's all in his head but her face would popped out of nowhere. It's a cycle you see.

Answer my texts, you bastard - yoo
Fuck, Jeonghan. Answer me! - yoo
What the hell is wrong with you?! - yoo

The phone continued to blink. So is his eyes. And his heart. And his fingers as they touch his lips. The funny thing is that he couldn't even see what is the problem. Maybe he's actually unaware most of the times.

Fuck.

This sucks.

You were the thorn stuck in my throat

-He could see him. And her. But he wasn't there. Who's he? What is he doing here? But then he wakes up and he was stuck in his room full of her faces. Sleeping, laughing, smiling, frowning, crying, moaning, bathing, changing, sucking, staring, wanting, blinking, sitting. Asking.

His camera is full but his heart is empty.

You haven't visited - yoo
Let's drink, hyung!!!- boo
Where's the manuscript? - won

He laughs as he hear her voice from the video. She was swimming in the pool, so lost from the water that is willing to drown her at any moment.

"You're so cute."

His pupils dilated. He started to moan.

I drank water but I got drowned in you

-There was something with Yoo Jeongyeon. It's not her legs and it's not her eyes. It's not her quite flabby stomach that he pinches every time. It's not the way she walks as if the world owes her a trophy. It's not her voice nor her hair. It's not certainly her dog that he named after him.

He is not him after all.

Bro, are you sure? - min
You're basically failing, Yoon Jeonghan. - mr. kang
baby, you wanna meet? - won

She's not asking him today. He sighs. Then laughs.

"Oh, what should I do with you?" He hums and the television flickers. A sleeping figure could be seen within the dark room.

I should've killed you but didn't
You wished I did
Good thing I wouldn't

-the thing is that, before he died, he was sure he wasn't a citizen of this city. he wasn't a researcher nor does he own a cactus. he doesn't have a life outside other than his dog and his foster brother, jimin. he wasn't even a boyfriend of some unknown girl. he wasn't jeonghan.

then he woke up and he saw that damned eyes staring back at him. he doesn't like danger but boy, she was. she's commitment and sin born to make him confused. he wasn't sure but she needed to stay away. he wasn't in his right mind.

he wasn't in the right body.

every day he asks to be back on his own.

the skin isn't his but every second he ask his wishes to not be true. let the child sleep within his mind. let him control this body.

so he could do it unto her.

(I'm temporarily (?) back? HAHAHAHHA stream cry for me, y'all! Btw, who do you think is the guy within hannie? Hmm)