𝚝𝚠𝚒𝚜𝚝𝚎𝚍 ~ 𝚃𝚁

Truth

(TW Toxic relationship)

After the Imperio incident, I desperately clung onto Tom. He had made me loose every shred of my self respect, and I felt absolutely horrible without him. Being with him made me feel like I was worth something.

My grades fell a little in the classes where I weren't next to him. I had drifted away from Mary and Louise. Mary was mad as hell about it, but Louise knew something was wrong when I stopped sleeping in our dorm. The only two people in my life were Abraxas and Tom,

The day after the meeting I had tried to check on Lestrange. He kept ignoring me and telling me to leave him alone. I did, he obviously didn't want to talk and I didn't have the energy to. 

Even the thestral herd sensed something was wrong with me, but Tom didn't seem to notice anything besides that I started being very good to him, obeying his every order. I stopped talking back to him and he seemed grateful.

Tom's warm arms wrapped around my waist and pulled me into him, sighing as he woke up. He planted a kiss underneath my jaw and I had felt his eyes opened by the feeling of his eyelashes on the back of my neck. "Morning, darling."

His morning voice was deep and raspy. Though I was used to waking to it every day, every time I heard it, I got butterflies. I softly groaned when I turned over. His eyes were a dull green in the morning, yet they seemed so beautiful.

Riddle pushed some stray hair out of my face. He studied my expression for a moment. "Something's on your mind, tell me." I thought for a minute. What would I tell him? That I felt worthless when I'm without him? That he forced everyone but my family and friends out of my life? That he's so fucking twisted and toxic?

"Tell me, Mia. I'm not in a patient mood today." Tom growled, and I recoiled at his words. He pulled me closer and tilted my head towards his. He was annoyed. He was clenching his jaw and his grip on mine was a bit too firm.

"Well- it's just that since the night where you had the meeting and I was there and all that happened, I always feel like I'm not worth anything when I'm not with you, and that made me not want to hang out with anybody but you, which pushed Louise and Mary out of my life... And if I do something you don't like you, fuc- I mean, you decide to humiliate me in front of your perverted cult members, and that honestly makes me lose all of my self-respect. I'm a human, Tom, not an object."

Tom frowned at me, "You agreed to be mine-" I interrupted him quickly, "By humiliating me in front of one of my friends. I feel violated, Tom. This relationship or whatever we have going on here is toxic. Either you get better or I leave..."

Riddle's hand covered my mouth and he was gritting his teeth. "Don't fucking interrupt me, Mia. I am a man, you are a woman. I am your superior and you treat me that way. It doesn't matter whether you are mine or not, a woman never interrupts a man while he's speaking."

He removed his hand from my lips and I looked away, both afraid and ashamed. From wasn't in a good mood and that was obvious. "I'm sorry, " I apologised and he turned my face again toward him. "Now, this is how it will go. I will talk, and when I am finished, you may talk, understood?" I slowly nodded, so he continued.

"Now, disregarding the fact that you don't know your place as a woman, you never talk to me that way. I'm you're superior in the wizarding world because I am more powerful than you. If you didn't plan on obeying me, then you shouldn't have even snogged me in front of half of Slytherin house."

On top of that, I could dump you away easily and get a better, more obedient girl who knows her place. You're lucky to have me. I'm sure Miss Parkinson would look wonderful at my side at the next gala that's  thrown, wouldn't she? I'm sure she'd love to attend it with me."

And that night, where Lestrange almost violated you in the restrooms, do Louise and Mary know about it? No, they don't. If they were your true friends, they would know. If they were you're true friends they wouldn't be calling you a selfish whore behind your back."

Do you remember why else happened that night? I inflicted pain on Lestrange. And you were satisfied, weren't you? You're just as sadistic as I am. You liked watching him cry and scream on the floor. If I didn't love you, would I do that? I punish you so you learn your lesson and don't interrupt my punishments for others. I do all of that because I love you, and nobody else truly does."

The rest of his explanation melted away when I heard the words 'I love you'. Did he love me, or more importantly, did I love him back? He's put me through hell and back, and I still stuck around, does that mean love? Or was it that I was just afraid of him?

I assumed Riddle saw the ashamed and afraid look on my face, because he stopped talking and sighed. "I'm scaring you, aren't I? I'm hurting you, too, aren't I?" I looked away, toward the ceiling. His large hand cupped my face and rubbed my bottom lip gently. "Darling, don't be hurt, and I beg of you not to be afraid. I'm sorry, I just got mad and scared that you would leave and I- Mia, I would never hurt you. Ever. Please trust me on that."

I turned toward him again and he smiled. "I'll try to get better." I sighed and hugged him tiredly. 

"Is it true?" I asked, almost immediately regretting what I had asked.

"Is what true?"

"Do you love me?"

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Yes it's a shorter chapter 

This conflict won't be resolved in just one chapter, it'll take at least two.

Anyways my dad came home today so  :D

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