December(The last month of the year)

14th December.

In the whole of 2020,nothing have hurt me like that sentence.

They didn't give him back.

That was the most heartbreaking thing I have heard in a while,you know when your hope is crushed,like being crushed hardly that was how I felt.It felt like my whole world was crumbling and all I could embrace was my hurting heart.That was all I got.

Yaya must be suffering.Am sure they didn't give him food,he didn't bath nor prayed.

I have heard about many stories of people being kidnapped but I didn't know that it was this heartbreaking. I didn't know that this was how the family feel.

Whenever I would eat, I will ask myself weather yaya have eaten,when I bath also,when I drink water too,when I sleep on a very comfortable mattrass am sure he must be uncomfortable on the chair that they have tied him.Maybe they don't even allow him to sleep.Like play like play it has been two days since he have been kidnapped,the day he was kidnapped and yesterday,today is his third day there and we don't even know weather he is doing fine.

"They have called." It echoed in my ears and I didn't even know when I ran to the living room and collected the phone in a swift "Smart girl?" He asked and I nod my head "It is me." I replied and he chuckled "Your brother here is not fine today,you should comfort him." He said and my heart beat increased after seizing for a second "I--I need help." The first things I noticed was that he was very weak,he was sad and he was crying "Yaya we will save you." I assured "Am going to die.I don't want to live." He spatted and I sobbed painfully "Just be strong for us." I whispered in a very low voice "It is disgusting being here." He replied and the phone was back to the evil man's ear "Smart girl,stop being a cry baby and help your brother.The poor guy is in pain." He whispered the last part making me more anxious.

"What do you want?" I asked worriedly "You!"

The whole systems of my body paused for a while and I could feel my legs giving up on me as I slumped down,my hands were shaking terribly.

Me?

He wants me?

Why?

God!

"Bad joke,I guess." He said laughing and I picked up the phone hurriedly "Tell your father to be careful next time. I was just joking." He said feigning innocence. I guess I was so lost in my taught that I didn't realize that Baba carried the phone and talked back to them.

"5 million.This time around your brother will be back,I always keep my words." I could say that he was smirking from the way his voice sounded "Especially for you smart girl." Am feeling very anxious about all this okay.

"Reduce It please,we are not as rich as you think,we have given you all we had and-." The call went off after that.

"He hanged up?" Baba asked and I nod my head "Yaya is in pain,we cannot waste time anymore Baba." I stated as I remembered the way he was talking painfully.

It is disgusting being here.

It has to be.

Am sure it must be so disgusting that.....ugh.

I don't have anything to say okay.

I walked back to my room and turned on my data to message A,he have been messaging me but I wasn't replying.

Kabir H Abbas:My brother have been kidnapped.Am very worried A,what if they kill him? What if they keep torturing him?

Mr Anonymous:What if? What if? What if? Ugh!

Mr Anonymous:What if you calm down and pray for him?

Mr Anonymous:Crying will not help your brother,prayer will,pray,pray and pray precious!

Mr Anonymous:Allah is the one who will help your brother not your tears.Pray for him and it will surprise you.The kidnappers will let him go even if you don't give them anything.

Mr Anonymous:Just pray and make sure you trust Allah while doing so.

Why does he always have to be right?

Why is he always right?

Well same same.

But still why is he always saying the correct thing?

Ugh same same.

I have alot on my plate already so I will find my answers later.

Kabir H Abbas:You are right A.Thank you.

I didn't have the strength to write a long note.Am weeping in my heart.

Mr Anonymous:Can I call?

Kabir H Abbas:Do you even have to ask?

I guess we have already passed the stage of asking weather to call or not,even though gentle men do that but still...

Call me!

Just call!

His call came through immediately "I miss the old you,you are now boring." I said and he laughed "Seriously being a gentle man doesn't suit you." It really doesn't suit him "Just say you have missed me.What is I missed the old you?" I just smiled "Crazy girl." Oh God he is back!

"As much as I miss the old you, I also hate my old nickname." I cringed at the nickname "Point of correction,your old nickname was 'Ms I miss my ex'." Oh yeah right.

"Worse." I said pouting "I hate this one more." I whined and he laughed.

"How does it feel?" I asked and he seemed confused "To lose your father?" I finished and he let out a very deep sigh which said out all his emotions which he have been hiding "Nobody ever asked me that." He started and his voice was now unbelievably low "Nobody cared."

I do.

"It felt terrible,like am being stripped out of my comfort zone. I miss him so much because he is the only one who understands me,after he left I turned into nothing,he was my identity and like a mere dust he left me all alone with him all over my soul." It must have felt so terrible "I had to take care of everyone because I was the eldest,my father never taught us how to adjust for less so after he left we really suffered because we had to adjust.It was very hard and also very sad that we have to change ourselves,Hudaya that was most heart breaking phase of my life.Each and ever wall was crumbling one by one and the worst thing is that I didn't have control over it.

"I was very lazy but I had to become hardworking because I needed to fit into this life and adjust so that my siblings don't suffer.No one was there to advise me anymore,nobody to watch new together with. It was absolutely dreadful." He let out a chuckle "You have your dad so be happy and make him happy because one day he won't be there." I felt that!

It went straight into my heart.

"I pray that Jannatul firdaus become his final abode." I prayed "You never fail to amaze me A.You are so strong,your sibling are lucky to have someone like you." I meant what I said.

"How does it feel when your brother is kidnapped?" He asked and I smiled sadly.

"It feel like a part of my heart is missing."

"Like I have been robbed of my peace of mind."