You think I’m ignorant savage,
And you’ve been so many places I guess it must be so,
But still I cannot see, if the savage one is me,
How can there be so much that you don’t know?
-Pocahontas
Distance
Ash’s P.O.V.
My body shut down shortly after the attack. Blood had been flowing from me freely, nothing clotting or stopping it. As soon as it went dark, my body screams.
He is gone.
Kaiden is gone. My little brother risked his life for me, and now they have him. I couldn’t even protect my own kin! All around me was mass amounts of Alpha energy. Constant streams of cuss words and testosterone surrounded me, filling my senses. I couldn’t get a grasp on reality for a while, it was hard to even keep the small pinch of it I had, the smelling.
After a while, I gave up; my brain and heart shutdown as I thought about my brother. Kaiden and I have been through everything together. My parents adopted Kaiden when I was young, like 6, young. A neighboring pack was destroyed, including Kaiden’s mom and dad, and he was the only known survivor. Kaiden was the boy my dad always wanted and the son my mother babied. I was okay with this though; I don’t like attention. Kaiden was the only thing that kept me on my feet at times, he is my mini-knight-in-shining-armor.
And I’ve lost him.
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Im not entirely sure how long I’ve been in this coma. I can hear everything said, I can smell every scent, and I can feel peoples sympathetic touch. I can’t touch back and obviously I can’t speak or see, but I have a feeling I will be able to soon. The thing no one knows, because they haven’t checked, is that I am pregnant, with twins. I only know this because I can feel them moving. Alpha pups start to move at two weeks. The sad and very depressing part about this entire unknown pregnancy is that I won’t be able to carry these pups to term. Which means I will be having a miscarriage soon, unfortunately. The reason I know this is because every woman in my family has started their first pregnancy and lost the baby, every single time. That’s why I am a female Alpha, my brother was lost about three weeks after conception.
My mind has been mulling over this fact for ages, ever since the babies first moved. And I have absolutely no idea how to tell Riley.
I guess now is as good of time as any. My wolf speaks, her voice scratchy and strained. She has been depressed because of the babies and my brother. Just as I go to question her about her statement I feel it. I feel my body start to come out from the still state, and into ultimate panic mode.
“Riley!” I scream, the heartbreak from these last few weeks tearing my heart inside out. Feet pound down the hall as screams rip through my throat. “I am so sorry…” I say as he burst through the metal door. I look at him through blurred vision and see my love covered in bruises, he has been fighting. His eyes have bruises under them and his cheeks are sunken. His normally bulging frame, seems small and weak. I did this to him.
