Monsters are real

A new and Improved Binkie

What I can't get over is that I killed Binkie. I lied to her and killed her. Why, because she was defending herself the only way she knew how to. And I feel sick, devastated. Like what- did- I- just- do- kind of sick. 

I'm thinking about canceling today's practice until I get a call from Chi.

"What do you want?" I groaned, looking through the tent flap and seeing that everyone was practicing the show's performance. 

You still have to pick a second ringleader, you know. My mind seemingly smacked me in the face. 

"Everyone's wondering where you are, Abbey. Your team needs you, now whatever happened with Binkie is whatever. But you need to get your butt in here and tell these people that you care." He ordered before hanging up.

Maybe I did deserve this, for not being there.

I ran out of my tent, and down the dirt path towards the ring and entered it. Everyone stopped what they were doing to look at me. "Guys, I'm super sorry I wasn't here, I had to take care of something important. Now you need to know that Binkie is no longer with us." I started as I ran down the wooden stairs and grabbed the whip. 

"What do you mean, Binkie is no longer with us?" Pie asked, as she was dangling from one of the Trapeze's arms. 

"I-okay look. I had to kill her. I couldn't fix her. And we all know that." I said flatly, feeling the tears pinch my eyes. 

"I know you would, or maybe one of us  would do it sometime soon; she was such pain. Nine said from one of the many bases. 

"Are you-" 

"Yes, and we all agree with her, she's just as bad as Peewee. We didn't want to say anything to her, because of how hard she takes the simplest things. So actually, you did us all a favor." Bugs said, as she got off the motorcycle. 

Bugs walked over to me and hugged me, I could feel the sweat on her brow rub on to my face. 

"You did the right thing." She whispered into my ear. 

And everyone started to join in on the bear-hug. They said nice things to me, they kissed my head, and comforted me. 

"We all love you, and we know about you and Legs." Bugs said as she let go of her.

"Wha-?" I started but Legs ran up to me and kissed my lips, and everyone awed and ooed.   

I kissed him back, and wrapped my arms around him, hugging him closely.

"Okay, we should save this for later, princess." He whispered into my ear, and kissed me on the lips again. 

"We ready to put on a rehearsed show?" He yelled happily, and everyone agreed with him.

As I waited for everyone to get into their spots, I snapped my whip at the ground for it to begin. The Jacks go first with their stunts, swallowing swords and riding the motorcycles into the chain ball. They do their routine and then the Trapeze start with a second snap of my whip. I glance at Legs, and he was hitting everything the right way. I glanced back at the Jacks, and they already stopped their act. 

Maybe they already have their counts down?  My mind wondered. 

And once they rode off to the side and watched intently on the Trapeze artists, and then the clowns started their routine just as normal. And they were killing it. Just watching it made me want to do round-offs because of how perfect they hitting it.