The Blood Assassin

Chapter 32

“You may begin,” I say to Blake once I was laying on my bed comfortably and gotten snacks which was mostly pumpkin juice.

It's quite nice to be honest....

He had left to change into some sweatpants and surprise surprise he came back without a fucking t-shirt.

If he thinks I'll get distracted in any way he is clearly mistaken.

I think you are clearly mistaken given you are oogling him at the moment.

I look up to look at his face and it already has a smirk on it.

He was currently standing in front of my bed looking down on me,“Just grab a fucking chair and sit down, you don't have to make me feel like a fucking ant,” I say scratching my cheek.

“Was kinda hoping you'd invite me to sleep with you,” he mutters while sitting down.

“Explain now,”

“Well let me start when you left me at the Agency right after Carla told us she was going to be my date, Logan you got to understand that I take orders I don't make them so me arguing with your mom about me just simply being her date, do you think that would've made sense? Of course I was fucking angry but why would I lash out on Carla she had nothing to do with it she's just following orders.

And remember you are the one who chose not to sit with me on that plane right after I'd stashed my bag with food only you liked even that pumpkin juice thats near to impossible to get.

Finally today I couldn't even bring her close to me, do you understand that? It was so fucking hard to act like I loved her when I knew I loved someone else. I don't know why because everything you've done shouldn't make me love you but it does. It's messing with my head, you are all I think about and I don't know how to make it stop, I don't even know if I want it to stop. And the kiss that I know you saw it had to be done, I hated every second of it, the thought of kissing someone that's not you just disgusted me. I could easily do that when I was with Skylar or with Dawn but I hated myself for kissing Carla knowing there was you and I know we are not together but it didn't stop me from feeling guilty,”

He said he loves me

You don't have to repeat we are all aware of that.

Fuck you Karen

“I’m sor— yeah no um I'm so— still doesn't feel right coming out of my mouth, okay I  apologize,” I mutter the last part

I hate saying I'm sorry

“That took so much out of you,” he states while laughing

“It’s not funny,” I huff pouting

He finally stops laughing and just looks at me then he quickly grabs my ankles and pulls me closer to him. My food long forgotten now when he starts leaning in and when his lips are about to touch mine I remember something.

I immediately push him off and run to the bathroom and grab my toothbrush. I drinking was pumpkin juice which Blake is allergic to, I could've gotten him sent to hospital.

You care about stopping, yikes

It's not the end of the world, so what if a small smidget of my heart beats for Blake in such I way, I don't want any harm coming in his way

I haven't even told him I loved him let  alone like, I was taught never to love and I was punished greatly if I even so much as showed I felt sorry for someone so me feeling this way for Blake shows how fucked I am.

When I have finished brushing my teeth I walk out and see him sitting on the edge of the bed with his elbows on his knees and head in his head.

Now I feel bad for just running off. I walk towards him until I'm right in front of him and it's then that he looks up, fuck him and having beautiful eyes.