Doah : making memories

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Noah: I was leaving sway so I thought I'd tell dix I was coming .

——he calls dix no reply——

Noah: I started to panic and intrusive thoughts spun around In my head. Damn I knew I shouldn't have left her alone.

Noah: I sped home as fast as I could and I immediately ran up the stairs to Dixies apartment.

Noah: immediately when I saw dix my heart plummeted to the ground and I just stood their for a good while staring at her smoke coming out of her nose and mouth.

Dixie: oh Noah!

Noah: I didn't reply I just couldn't. I was in two minds of just leaving her but I knew in this state I really couldn't risk it. I loved her after all

Dixie: baby come here for a kiss!

Noah: Dixies breath smelt strong of tobacco and all I could think about was the poor baby inside of her.

Noah: I picked her up like a baby and put her in bed. She got out a few times but luckily I was on watch.

Dixie: night my baby I love you

Noah: I wanted to reply but I couldn't. I can't believe she would do this too me.

Dixie: Noah!

Noah: what now !

Dixie: I need toilet !

Noah: I forced her to go herself . Head in my hands I couldn't look at her in this state it broke me.

Dixie: Noah!

Noah: just shut it dix!

Dixie: Noah.. I'm bleeding.

Noah: I knew exactly what had just happened. I fell into my knees and wept. At this moment I felt so vulnerable but even though she had no clue what was going on Dixie came and hugged me passionately.

Dixie: I'm sorry baby.

Noah: again I didn't reply. I picked out some new sweatpants and gave her a fresh pack of tampons which id picked up from the grocery store earlier.

Dixie: I'll go to bed now .

Noah: I nodded in reply, then sat on the side of the bath and cried again.

Noah : after 5 minutes Dixie was fast asleep.. I left her a note on her dresser and then left.

—-Noah arrives at sway——

Bryce: wtf man!

Josh: Noah are you good what happened.

Blake: shit you look tired af.

Noah: ikik guys I've just realised.

Blake: what!

Noah: me and dix miscarried.

Bryce: shit. I'm so sorry man (Bryce hugs him)

——everyone comes and hugs Noah and they sit and talk for a bit before they all head up to bed——

——Dixie now wakes up——

Dixie: 12 pm already shit.

Dixie: I woke up with a really bad headache. I turned over to reach for my phone and there was a note on my dresser. It read :

Hey. It's me Noah. So shit went down last night we need to talk. I understand it's hard for you but there's no excuse I don't know how many more times I can trust you dix. I do love you I really really do but my heart hurts so so bad when I see u like I did last night. Please talk to me. However before you do you might want to go to the bathroom... I'm sorry .

Dixie: of course I ran to the bathroom. I checked and I fell apart. I burst out crying and I couldn't believe what I was seeing. I felt like this was all my fault.

Dixie: I picked up my phone.. still sobbing and immediately rang Noah. He picked up.

Noah: hey.

Dixie: I- I just

Noah: I'm coming over.

Dixie:okay. (Bursts into tears again)

——Noah arrives at Dixies house——

Noah: yeah.

Dixie: this is all my fault I'm such a let down. I'm crippling Noah I mean look at me. The apartment. Everything. I'm a let down and I know it.

Noah: I just I don't know what to say dix.

Dixie: I know I had a drink last night but I was just feeling really really vulnerable.

Noah: yeah dix you know what. Me too.

Dixie: I'm sorry okay I don't know how I'm ever going to fix this and the baby well I thought that we were going be a happy family.

Noah: well we're not and the baby is gone dix. I'm more than disappointed in you after what happened last night. Do you really think I could trust you with OUR baby !?

Dixie: no .

Noah: exactly.

Dixie: Noah wait!

Noah: I walked out. I couldn't look at her in this state I just couldn't. I made it half way down the stairs when a lightbulb clicked in my head. I couldn't leave her alone wtf was I doing right now! Bad Noah . I hit myself . 'Bad bad Noah'

Noah: I ran up the stairs as fast as I could and eventually reached Dixies apartment. I rang the doorbell and held my breath hoping that dix would open the door.

Dixie: hey. So you did come back.

Noah: always back to you.

Dixie: look Noah. I made a mistake and I'm so so sorry I guess you we're right I wasn't ready for a baby. It's basically ruined me.

Noah: I know and I'm sorry too. But we really need to get you some help.

Dixie: yeah. My mum has booked therapy for me. First session tonight.

Noah: good. I'm happy for you.

Dixie: yeah. I'm so sorry for all of this Noah.

Noah: your mental health is way more important. I'm here for you and I always will be.

Dixie: I look in Noah's glimmering hazel eyes and all the memories came flooding back to me, I pulled Noah close to me and put my hand on his chest. Just having him close to me made me feel like I was invincible.

Noah: I pulled Dixie close to me and we stayed there for a while it felt amazing and I felt sparks all over my body.

More coming soon love u all !