Why would I lie and say I feel good
When I don't feel good?
All I really want is to be happy and truly feel good
I got everybody looking at me -tierra whack
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"I mean every sense Alex and Angelo was born all you have done was fucking torture me"
"That is NOT true, all I did was love you but you made me this way"
Fear, all I had in this moment was fear. He was so close to hurting me I can see it in his eyes, the way he moved. It Instilled fear in me.
"Please just stop, ... I can't do this anymore with you, you know what you did" I whispered, if I would have spoken any louder I felt like I would rip my own throat out. He grabbed my arm and pulled me towards him. I wish... I wish... I-i wish I could be strong, but I'm not, I am WEAK....
"What did I do to you other than love and protect you" he whispered in my ear menacingly. His breath was heavy and uncontrolled, he was angry, I could tell by how tight he was holding on to me. His eyes narrowed at me, as if I did something wrong, daring me to speak.
"You- you took EVERYTHING FROM ME, MY BABIES, MY FREEDOM, MY HAPPINESS, y-you r-raped me... you r-raped me"
At that moment...
I broke, I snached my arm from his grasp, I couldn't breathe here. I need to get away, but every step I took felt like I wasn't moving, everything was so dizzy. All the tears I cried over the years rushed back like a tsunami, yet I was drowning, I couldn't breathe, everytime I would come up to get air I was pushed back. Giovanni came towards me, I shook My hands crazily, motioning him to not come any further, My throat was on fire,
I... need... air...
"Aaliyah honey, look at me" I shook my head and gasp, I tried to walk towards the door but it was no use because on that first step I started to fall backwards,back into this pit, this thing, into Giovanni, he caught me.
"Shh shh I got you it's okay" he tried to reassure me but all it did was make me want to get out of his grasp even more. Nothing is okay and it never will be.The desperation in his eyes told me to believe him but the fear in my heart told me I need to leave him.
"N-no... please please I- I want to be free"
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RomanceDrear Giovanni, I can remember it so clearly, the beatings, the rough sex afterwards, it was like some sort of apologie for you and in the morning you're no were to be seen. I'm in that cold bed where you left me feeling so unwanted... So di...
