Life Is Beautiful

chapter 3 another day another rumor

the paranio goes on and on as you hear the slithered words, the mumbles, the little rats and mice scurring all over the place as they keep getting bigger and bigger. It affects the more people its about and the act is what they will hear. They judge you before they even know you, that is why one of my favorite quotes would be "never judge a book by its cover" because it shows how impactful it can really be used properly and not sarcastically. But anywho 2 weeks after the incident and kinda have to say i feel like shit. I mean all i really do is start little conversations, maybe a hi, hello and bye and not really much since i dont want to get too involved in the drama and stuff that goes around. Get through the school day, pick up my stiff and my phone, take the train or the bus home, see my brother which is the only one in the house and not really much after that besides eat, sleep do work and boom. Yea i guess i live a boring life. Im lonely what do you expect. It only comes down when im sad which happens alot but in the end it doesnt matter since no one listens. Already 4 weeks into high school, october 2nd a day where things took a larger turn into my life, but i didnt know it would stay with me for the rest of my life. Walk into room 213 my first period of course. The same peopls i see and have a closer bond with would have to be christian, roxy, jessica and richard. Yea not that much but you gotta blend in somehow ya know? anyways roxy talks to me
"hey how are you today?"
i respond with "im good as always you see my expression"
"do you seem to be lonely alot?" she asked in a more engaged manner.
"I mean what is your defintion of lonely? It doesnt really matter if i am or not am what the world sees about me isnt their concern is it?".
"heh i guess thats true in most cases, hey have you heard of tyler getting in trouble again?" she asked
"again? the dude always does get into trouble, at this point im surprised taht he still even in this school and not expelled."
boldly i guess would have been my responsd but tyler is not casual since hes a thug wanna be and the tough dudes as always wanna make themselves know which in the end they all look at you negatively and only talk to you out of  respect of negative. They only see that part they are not actually your friends in any way shape or form. I should know since i was like that in my middle school years.
jessica looks around the room and calls over christian and roxy over and the 4 of us talk. I asked " have any of yall seen richard?"
"hes absent today and honestly thats surprising since hes always here" said roxy. I was also confused since i saw him here alot too it was something new out the ordinary. Who knows he could be sick or maybe a doctor appointment or maybe a family issue of some sort. Then later on i had heard 3 days later on october 5th, richard, has died.