Phil Lester has been bullied for years and when he is diagnosed with chronic depression it starts to go downhill. But could the new boy prove to be the light in an otherwise dark world? Read to find out. Trigger Warning: contains scenes of abuse, graphic violence, self harm, depression, bulemia, anorexia and other tri...
It's my first fanfic, I'm sorry in advance. Basically a high school au where Dan and Phil are in different French classes, and the school has a limited budget, so they have to share textbooks with someone in another class. Surprise (you guessed it) Dan and Phil end up sharing, and Phil leaves himself little notes in t...
[COMPLETED] Dan and Phil have been friends and living together for years. When Dan starts getting feelings for Phil, he doesn't know how he is going to open up about his emotions. He is also worried about Phil's reaction; whether he will agree with Dan's views or shut Dan out of his life forever. Were they destined to...
It's high school, and Dan has always been home schooled. When he gets to his new school as a freshman, he is instantly pushed aside as an outcast. The whole reason he was put into public school was his parents were moving away to live with his grandfather who was sick. So, he was to live with his dad's friend who also...
Dan is tired. So, so tired. Mentions of suicide and self harm . all cover pictures are my own
11:11pm "I wish my my life was easier. I wish I was happy. I wish my dad wasn't so mean. I wish my mom was still alive.-" 11:12pm "-I wish Philip Michael Lester loved me back." [Dans life was horrid. But he tried not to let it show at school. Read about dans journey about him overcoming his life problems and falling...
Dan. Kind of there, kind of not. Mostly just sad and lonely. Phil. New at school. They say opposites attract, like magnets. Don't they? (I'm in the process of re-writing this so if you see variations in quality please bear with me) *TRIGGER WARNING* Depression, self harm, mentions of suicide.
[All triggers and warnings will be stated at the beginning of each chapter] Dan regrets everything and Phil misses him. But the thing most needed in a relationship was lost. Trust. *** Phil doesn't know what to do with his life and Dan's is encouraged by his parents. Their lives were miserable and they were each oth...
Dan Howell and Phil Lester have said over and over that "Phan" is not real, and they have never been in a relationship together. They swear it; not even once. But behind the YouTube videos, BBC 1 radio shows and YouNows, what do Dan and Phil do in their private time? Are the fan-theories closer to the truth than Dan a...
plz don't read this it's dumb and I'm embarrassed. (2016) - Dan and Phil begin to develop feelings toward eachother but not sure how to explain it. Is it a crush? Or more? And what happens when they're both called to do a segment together for a youtube convention? Will they act fine or will they remain friends? WAR...
"he looked up, and fell in love all over again with the idea of a happy ending." [in which dan howell misses phil lester, and he just wants him back] + lowercase intentional inspired by "all of the stars" by ed sheeran trigger warnings: character death, self harm, suicide
✰ "As much as I tried to not love Phil Lester, I can't help but fall for him slowly and steadily." "God, you're making this sound like some cheesy line from The Vow." Chris rolled his eyes and munched on his crisps...
{COMPLETED} Phil was mute, alone and bullied. Dan was outgoing, popular, and a bully. But when he starts developing feelings for Phil, what happens? -once again not good at summaries but give it a try-
COMPLETE : Phil moves to England, to study at a school after a massive argument with his family.- trigger warnings; cutting, sucide references and attempts.
Sequel to Black and Blue (read that first!) Dan struggles to get back on his feet after everything that's happened. Phil seems distant, and it causes problems in their relationship that Dan isn't sure he can handle.
Dan always seems normal. He is kind to his friends and loves all things nerdy, which is why kids find him an easy target. But what most people don't know, is that he is trapped in a deep state of depression that he can't get out of, thanks to the death of his father, his alcoholic step-father, the bullies at school, a...
Five days ago, Phil found his best friend bleeding to death. Triggers: attempted suicide, self harm Author note: Based off of the song Skinny Love. I prefer the Birdy version, but Bon Iver is the original artist. I suggest listening during reading. If you enjoy, become a fan, vote, and comment any ideas you have. :D
update:: this was written about two years ago, the writing is quite bad, I apologize in advance //trigger warning// //dans pov// "do you love me phil ?" "maybe i do"
Dan and Phil seem to have a pretty good life. They are a couple of the most famous youtubers, the work on their own radio show, and they're best friends. Phil couldn't be any happier. But what happens when Phil finds out about the other side of Dan he hasn't met yet? WARNING: MENTIONS OF SELF HARM AND SUICIDAL TENDE...
Ethan's nightmares are terrifying. He hates falling asleep; he hates having to witness the twisted world that he's forced into when he closes his eyes. But when they begin to blend into reality, facing them may be his only choice. __________________ IMPORTANT NOTICE - if you're reading this story on a site that is not...
"You don't always have to be brave." Phil struggles with self harm, depression and is bullied at school. The only person who knows is Dan Howell. But they aren't exactly 'friends'... God knows he could use a friend right now..... ~concept~ 1-24 ~ 2009 phan 25-40 ~ 2012 phan 40-50 ~ 2015 phan //TRIGGER WARNING//MENTIO...
Dan comes home from Christmas shopping to find Phil in the bathroom passed out. He doesn't know how or why this happened, but is terrified for his best friend. Dan tries to help Phil but gets annoyed with himself in the process, writing everything he hates about himself along with his deepest secret: his love for his...
Sometimes, hiding things isn't the best idea. Sometimes, dreams do come true, and not always in the best way. But everything happens for a reason, right?
Prompt: “With Schools AUs it’s always Badboy!Phil with Nerd!Dan or Badboy!Dan with Nerd!Phil. That about a fic where both are bad, and meet behind the bike shed for a smoke, or both are nerds, and meet in the library.” (I went with both are bad) Summary: Dan Howell is one of the most popular kids in school, with a bad...
Dan and Phil, or danisnotonfire and AmazingPhil, are best friends who share a flat. Nothing more, nothing less. Until, of course, something happens which makes them both realize how much they mean to each other. Is it worth jeopardizing their friendship for something that probably won't work?
Dan's the most popular boy in school who's 'madly in love' with his girlfriend Caelyn. Dan finds out that things in him are changing and goes to Phil, the kid who gets bullied for his sexuality. Things happen between Dan and Phil, but will it be a happy ending? (This is a smut FREE phanfic. There will be NO smut)
All Dan wants to do is to break the little almost broken boy. Snap him into a million tiny pieces and crush his heart with his fist but at the same time all Dan wants to do is to cuddle him on a couch and watch cute movies. The first few chapters I wrote a while ago and seem so innocent and not as well written compare...
Phil Lester and Dan Howell always hated each other from the moment Dan first laid eyes on Phil. The two were on completely different sides of the social scale making it only natural for Dan to hate Phil. Phil didn't want to hate Dan but with every taunt or push from him, Phil's hate grew stronger. When Dan gets chosen...
Phil goes to a new school after bullying becomes too much at his other. But the negativity that has placed itself in his life suddenly starts slowly drifting away when he immediately meets a new friend, Dan Howell, almost immediately. Their friendship quickly escalates, and leaves Phil thinking that maybe his life i...
At PJ's party Dan sees Phil getting kissed by Alex. What is he going to do when he's the one that wants to be kissing Phil?