He was unlike any man I had ever laid eyes on, and I was his biggest fan. I had my dream job, an amazing best friend and a loving set of parents. After meeting my idol in person, my whole world changed. A normal fan girl crush, turned into real love between us. My family and friends adored him, but our relationship was a total secret. Until it got revealed to the world. I went from two hundred, to five million followers overnight, and I didn't like it. Having the world watching and judging your every move was a lot harder than I expected. Things got worse when Finley got too involved in the hollywood party lifestyle. I was left to pick up the peices and eventually only one question remained: Was Finley Beckett worth losing everything I had worked so hard to build in my life? ******** Trigger warning this book contains inferred drug use, open discussion of addiction, and some discussion of self harm Awards: Best Romance Writer EWA awards 2020