The pain and pleasure he brings is more than the sharp edge of the razor blade could ever offer me. Sixteen year old Ella's life is falling apart. After family life took a turn for the worse, she found her self silently battling depression, turning to physical pain for relief. But when Ella and her best friend Amanda meet Shane and Chris, two older guys at a party, they believe they've found the perfect men. Ella soon finds herself falling for Shane, and she believes he will save her from a troubled life. But love can be dangerously blinding. *** (There are some explicit scenes through the book - sexual scenes, drugs, abuse, rape etc. Just so people are aware)