In between depression and hope

I am wanna die so bad so cruelly it's like I been living for ages times seems like to ...........slow down and fate is against me, but you know even during times like this hope is something I held and always the one to told me that I have a reason to live
A story about a girl around 19 years old pain seems to the only friend of her since it is real life there is no such thing as a handsome prince charming to help her heal