I'll Stay Through It All

~Chapter 17~

Jeremy's P.O.V.

"Jeremy? You in there?" I scrambled to find something to patch up my arm. Nothing. Hold on, I can rinse it off with water and use a towel. "Uh y-yea, j-just a m-moment." I put my arm under the running water for a few seconds, grabbed a towel and lightly rubbed the blood away then I turned the faucet off, opened the door and quickly hid my arms behind my back. "What are you doing?" "N-Nothing." I scooted pass him and put my pajamas on, luckily they have long sleeves.

"Is there any pizza left?" I asked plopping onto the couch, seeing that he didn't even touch it. "Yea, I was waiting on you." Wow he changes clothes faster than a jack rabbit. Michael woofed sitting in my lap. "Oh. Sorry." He plopped next to me taking a slice. "It's ok, let's just eat." I took a slice and took a bite out of it. It tasted good. Awkward silence filled the room as we ate. Gavin's face kept flashing in my head, tears were at the brim of my eyes and I swallowed over the lump in my throat. I lost my appetite so I tried to finish the pizza I had put Michael in my spot then put my jacket on. Mike didn't seem to notice. I slipped out the door and went for a stroll. Its funny, how whenever I feel panicked, sad, angry, confused, or need to clear my mind, I always go to the park. I walked around on the huge track field they had singing. ( Listen to Battle Scars by Guy Sebastian ft. Lupe Fiasco and let it play for 12 seconds before continuing to read 😙)

"These battle scars, don't look like they're fading, don't look like they're ever going away, they ain't never gonna change..these battle. I wish I never looked, I wish I never touched, I wish that I could stop loving you so much, cuz I'm the only one that's trying to keep us together. When all of the signs say that I should forget him, I wish you weren't the best, the best I ever had, I wish the good out weighed the bad, cuz it'll never be over, until you tell me it's over. These battle scars, don't look like they're fading, don't look like they're ever going away, they ain't never gonna change. These battle scars, don't look like they're fading, don't look like they're ever going away, they ain't never gonna change. These battle.. I wish I couldn't feel, I wish I couldn't love, I wish I could stop, cuz it hurst so much, and I'm the only one trying to keep us together, when all of the signs say that I should forget him. I wish you weren't the best, the best I ever had, I wish that the good out weighed the bad. Cuz it'll never be over, until you tell me it's over. These battle scars, don't look like they're fading,don't look like they're ever going away,they ain't never gonna change. These battle.."

I sighed thinking about Mike and Gavin. I can only love one and I can't choose. My heart, mind and gut say Mike but my past and thoughts say Gavin. I heard a voice in my head. 'You will find the answer if you just listen to his explanation. You can't move on until you know. No one can.' 'Listen to his explanations? But-' 'No buts! if you want to love Mike you have to settle this thing or else you'll end up hurting him' Hurt Mike? I don't want that to happen. 'Fine, I will but I can't see Gavin I don't know where he's at' 'I wouldn't say that.' Huh? What does it mean? I heard crying come from the pond near the slides and sports field, I looked over to my surprise. It was Gavin, crying. I went to see why he was crying but I stayed quiet for a while first. "G-Gavin?" He whipped his head around looking at me, startled. "J-Jeremy? W-What are you doing here?" "Well I was taking a stroll then I heard crying." He wiped his face, staring back at the pond. "Oh." I sat next to him and put my hand on his shoulder, taking a big breath.

Gavin's P.O.V. DUN DUN DUUUUUUUN O0O

"Gavin, I want an explanation." I froze for a moment but I knew he would want one eventually. "Okay. I did love you, I really did it's just Josh tempted me, he forced me to the wall and kissed me, but, I melted into the kiss it was really good. I tried to escape but I gave up too easily. I'm sorry. I failed the relationship and I screwed it up, I really am sorry and I'd understand if you want to hit me for being a wimp." I closed my eyes preparing to be hit but instead I felt hands wrap around me. "It's okay, I understand now. I forgive you." He...He forgives me? "R-Really?" "Yea." he said letting go. "Thanks for forgiving me. I guess I can be at peace now." I chuckled weakly. "Yea me too." I can't tell him I still love him, he deserves better. Better than me. "Well I need to go, nice to see old "friends" Gavin. Take care." He waved, I waved back looking into the pond. It was nice seeing him again.

Le time skip for the 6th time in a row

Jeremy's P.O.V.

I entered the the house, closing the door behind. When I did I heard a shout come from the living room. "Jeremy! Where the hell have you been!? I was about to call the police!" I felt so guilty I gazed at the floor. "I-I'm s-sorry. I-I h-had w-went f-for a-a s-stroll. I-I c-caused y-you tr-trouble d-dint I?" The lump in my throat was back and so were the tears. Mike picked me up and sat me on the couch with him, not loosening his grip. "It's alright, I was just worried to death." He kissed my cheek, cradling me like I do with the pup. "I was worried about my JereBear." He said in that baby like voice again. I rolled my eyes, laughing as he kept speaking like that "My wittle JereBear, my wittle baby. Do you want your wittle bottle of milk?" I am not that kind of baby. "Hey! I'm not a baby, I'm a grown up!" I protested. He laughed at me. "Well grown ups don't get cradled like this." He stuck his tongue out, teasing me. I'm wanna test something. "Well grown ups don't cradle grown ups and they also don't bottom." He stopped laughing and looked at me when I said that. "What? Bottom?" I leaned up and kissed him roughly, holding his hands against the couch. We both were blushing.

I-I knew I would eventually t-top him.
Hehe. He moaned softly, tilting his head so we were in sync. He asked for entrance, so I granted it, but only for a little bit to be a tease. I pulled away and released him. "So that's what you meant. haha Shall we continue?" I poked his nose. "You can when you earn it." He lean closer intrigued like a little kid. "How do I earn it?" If he had a tail it would be wagging rapidly. "I....don't know actually. Well we should go to bed we'll find out tomorrow." I stood up and left to the room. Something grabbed my feet, I turned around and he was laying on the carpet holding my feet. "Waaaaaaaiiiitt! I need to know how to earn it? I must know." He whined, how old is he exactly? "Ooh, How about I earn one every one minute?" I struggled moving my feet until I was in the room, he dusted himself off and got off the ground. "How about you get three a day and you can decide when you get one?" "Only three? Twenty." "You get five a day or else." I use to be a great bargainer as a kid. I think I still am.
"Ten or I can get them another way.~"
He wiggled his eyebrows up and down in a playful way.
"S-Seven or n-none at a-all."
"Whoa easy there Jere. Ok seven it is. Geez." He chuckled in a somewhat sarcastic tone. "Good." I got into bed as did Mike. Today was a long day. He hugged me like he does every night before bed which makes me blush. WOOF WOOF! Michael barked at us "Goodnight Michael." I chuckled shifting around to see Mike staring at me. "W-What?" He cuddled me which felt more like suffocation. "You're so pretty Jere. Goodnight." Me pretty? "G-Goodnight M-Mike."
'I see you took my advice and have finally made your decision.' The voice talked to me. 'Yea, thanks you really helped. Who are you anyway?' It giggled. 'Just an old friend.' An old friend? Before I could ask my eyelids felt heavy and I was taken over by sleepiness.
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Can you guess who the voice is? I'll give you a hint it's no one that's been in the story already. Goodluck, it took me a while to decide what it would be so I don't have anything else to report or say except this.

Hi.
XD See you all later. Auf Wiedersehen, my children~