Diary Of A Normal Girl (Kian Lawley/Shawn Mendes)

Chapter 6

"Nooooo your not taking me.' I say.

"Too bad, choice made. We leave in a few months by the way." He says.

"SO I guess I am not leaving." I say. Kian perks up when I say it.

"Can I talk to you Alaska?" Sam asks.

"Sure, come on." I say, going out to my balcony. He comes out and closes the door. Then he pulls out a cigarette. 

"Seriously? Your going to get cancer you know that right? Your going to get cancer and your not going to survive and your going to die and then your fans will be upset and everyone will get mad so don't." I say, ripping it out of his hand. 

"I have to show you something." Sam says. He takes off all his bracelets and lets me see the scars buried deep within his wrists. That brings tears to my eyes. I take off all the bracelets I am wearing and spit on my wrist. I rub off the concealer and show him the scars buried within mine. He and I put our bracelets back on and I don't have my concealer so I hide it as best as possible. I go back inside with Sam and he and I sit together on the couch. I get glances from the guys like "are you guys a thing" looks. I get up and go into the kitchen. Ricky follows. 

"What were you and Sam talking about?" He asks.

"Sam has to tell you. I am not telling you what I said, but Sam needs to tell you what he said. Ricky and I go back in the living room. 

"Sam, its time to tell them." I say.

"Fine. As long at Alaska tells you too. Uhh guys..." He says, showing them his wrists.

"Dude, we love you don't please. " Jc says. 

"Alaska its your turn." Sam says. 

"Dude, nope." I say.

"Dude, yep." He says.

"I am only telling Ricky." I say, dragging Ricky into my bedroom. I make him sit on my bed as I take off my bracelets. I show him the scars and he starts crying. He leaves the room and I follow him. The guys see my wrist and stand there shocked. Kian starts crying, Trevor gets tears, Jc cries, Conner just looks depressed. I feel the tears start to well up in my eyes. Oh god. I will not cry in front of these guys. I run outside and just keep running. Suddenly I feel arms wrap around me. I don't know who it is but I break down. I fall to the grass and cry. The person who grabbed me comes and sits in front of me. Kian. He cares about me that much? He wraps me into a hug and I just let it all go.

'Kian I am so sorry." I say.

"Its fine." He says.

"Its never fine. Its not fine. I want you in my life as more than a friend but I can't handle it at the same time." I say.

"Then be my girlfriend." Kian says. 

"Why?" I ask. 

"Because your beautiful, and I love you." Kian says.

"Yes I will be your girlfriend." I say. 

"Are you being for real?" He asks me. 

"Yes." I say.

"Wait nope. You can't be my girlfriend. I have to take you on a date." He says. 

"Ok, when?" I ask.

"Well, I can do it tomorrow. It would take a lot of work. Ricky will be with you all day tomorrow ok?" He asks me.

"What are you going to do?" I ask.

"Umm nothing." He says.

"Ok, well sorry for running out, but I don't want to cry in front of Jc, Sam, Trevor, or Conner." I say.