Diary Of A Normal Girl (Kian Lawley/Shawn Mendes)

Chapter 14

I get in my black bikini and make sure all the blood is off me. I get out my phone and text all Kian's friends.

To everyone- Hey guys its Alaska, I am having a party. Pool party. If you wanna come be over here in 5 minutes. 

Then I sent a text to all the girls I know. I go downstairs and break into my mom's alcohol closet and get it all out. I take a huge drink and stumble a little because of the huge dose. I grab a bunch of Arizona's and bring them outside. Everyone is here and I tell them we are going to throw the biggest party ever and they need to text all there friends. I put my phone plugged into the speakers and start blaring music. A lot of people show up and everyone is getting tipsy. A few people have fallen in the pool already and I am just stumbling everywhere because I can't handle the alcohol. I run into Matthew and he is drunk also. He puts his arms around my waist and I forget everything he has done to me. I poke his nose.

"You're so cute." I mumble. 

"Awww shanks." He says, falling a little. I lean in to kiss him and he leans in also. It turns into a make out session. At this point I am clueless at what is happening. Then Matthew drags me inside and into my beddroom. We fall back on my bed and I try to push him off me. He doesn't move. I tell him to get off me.

"GET OFF ME!" I yell, forcing him off me. I jump off my bed and start running down the stairs. Matthew is close behind me and I fall down the last few steps. I fall into Conner who catches me in his arms.

"Conner help. Matthew, chasing, me." I pant between breaths.

"Not on my watch." Conner says. He lefts go off me as Matthew comes down the stairs. Conner punches him right between his eyes. I think he like passes out or something, because Matthew falls to the floor. Conner walks over to me and brings me somewhere and makes everyone go home. Conner and I go outside and walk over to his house. We go inside and he wraps a blanket around me. By now, my head hurts so bad I can barely stand. I see Kian and he gives me a look. I ignore him and follow Conner, who has my hand to wherever he wants me to go. He leads me into his bedroom and makes me sit on his bed.

"What were you thinking?" He asks me.

"I don't know. I was mad and I was jealous and I was screwing everything." I mumble, putting my head in my hands. 

"Getting drunk isn't going to help. Tomorrow when you wake up you are going to be so sick." Conner says. 

"I am sorry." I mumble, letting tears slip out of my eyes for being so stupid. Conner gets out of his chair and sits next to me, rubbing circles into my back as I cry.

"I am going to give you some of my cloths and you are going to spend the night with me. He goes into his closet and gets some of his sweats. He hands then to me and points me to his bathroom. I go in there and put the clothes on. I look into the mirror and just stare for a long time. I put on a song that goes "I promise that one day I'll be around I'll keep you safe I'll keep you sound." Then Conner opens the door.

"Why?" He asks.

"What?" I ask.

"You think your ugly. Your freaking perfect why can't you just see that?" He asks me.

"Conner can you hold me?" I ask. He walks over to me and hugs me tightly. I wrap my arms around his neck and hold him and everything stops. I let go of Conner and we walk out of his bedroom and I get under his blankets. He gets under his blankets as well and he pushes some hair out of my face.

"Goodnight beautiful." He whispers. Then I fall asleep. 

I wake up with the worst headache ever. I feel arms around me and look to see Conner sleeping peacefully beside me. I rub my head and sigh. I close my eyes and try to go back to sleep. But then I hear stuff in the next room. Andrea and Kian. Wow.