Definitely Not Jealous

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Author's Note

I'm sorry for the long wait. I'm well aware of the hype surrounding this current chapter, so I'm sorry if it disappoints (it probably will). I'm going to try writing more of this, but it's not going to be anywhere near a priority in my life, so i'm not guaranteeing anything when I say that. I'm uploading this the day after Christmas, so Merry Christmas if you celebrate it and I hope you had a good one. My gift to you is this chapter, meaning you're welcome Billi and Lexi for enabling your unhealthy compulsion to read this!

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Sutton's pov

The bell was not a savior

It started off well, allowing me to escape that strange conversation with Billi and preventing me from making a complete fool out of myself with the answer I conjured up for her question.

"Have you ever felt something for any girl?" she asked with one eyebrow raised, obviously confident that my answer would be a 'no.'

"Only in my dreams," I would reply, but if and only if I WAS A COMPLETE LOSER.

I face palmed myself at the reminder of my would-be answer.

God, I can't believe I was going to say that.

Why did I even think of saying that?

Was I trying to be mysterious?

As if the girl hasn't known me for the past 5 years.

Was I trying to be seductive? Did I want to leave her thinking about exactly what those dreams were about?

Gross, definitely not.

Well, at least I hope not.

Did my mind simply want to come clean to the person it so disgustingly couldn't stop thinking about?

As much as I didn't want it to... possibly.

Or maybe I'm just the stupidest, most awkward guy in the world.

That's definitely it.

I was usually so smooth with the female population!

I mean I never had a girlfriend (and trust me I didn't want one), but I could at least talk to them without sounding like the love interest from a trashy rom com.

It was all her fault.

If she hadn't let go of my backpack strings like an idiot and fell behind the group during the  summer I wouldn't have had to go get her, that kid wouldn't have bumped into me, and  I wouldn't be having intimate dreams about her.

Maybe I can just get a lobotomy

While I was obsessively combing over my cringy antics, I somehow stumbled into the auditorium where almost 3/4 of the entire school was seated, waiting to hear the Principle drone on for 45 minutes about the "expectations of the school year" and "the intolerance of PDA."

Yeah, but apparently that last one doesn't apply to his private office.

After snapping out of my self-pitying trace I looked around, looking for Beckham, so I could sit by him.

I missed our bromance if I was being honest. We hadn't talked as much since him and Shay started dating.

How fitting that you're having face mashing dreams about your best friend's girlfriend's best friend.

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