happy new year! hopefully 2021 will be better for everyone. i just wanted to document my overall thoughts and whatever else my brain feels at this moment. to start, please enjoy this cover/revamped version of f2020 by txt, its amazing and is such a gen z anthem. as the new year starts i want to try and be better at my emotions, cringe ew. but in all honesty, i need to learn to accept the things i feel and find ways to work with them, rather than ignoring and building them up inside. i don't normally set a new years resolution because i can almost never follow through with it. but this year, i think i might just set one. first, i would like to fix all my procrastination issues. its problem something that will take a while to improve, but i am kind of sick of leaving everything to the last minute and scrambling to get things completed on time. another would be to relearn korean. basically i started learning korean in july of last year. however, i did not practice, therefore i lost all my knowledge. so my goal is to learn it again. but not right away. im thinking again in the spring or summer. when my schooling is almost completed and there isnt much stress. and lastly, i want to be more open about what im struggling with mentally. *tw // depression + anxiety talk* as someone who has both anxiety and depression, i find myself hiding everything inside. there is one person i feel comfortable talking to about those things, but she lives far from me and with covid i cant really drive out to see her. i would like to be able to share what is happening in my head with my parents. even though they do not fully understand what im going through and may not see eye to eye about the severity of my depression and anxiety. i want to have the confidence in telling them. all that aside, i have nothing but hopes for a great year. it is also my graduation year, so thats kind of fun i guess. for now, im just trying to stay positive and look for more happiness in this new year. to whoever reads this, happy 2021, i hope you have a great new year!
