i have a midterm tomorrow and i am 100% not ready. i have to study 4 units but i only learnt 3. anxiety is hitting me like a truck and my procrastination has never been so bad. i feel like crying but i can't bring myself to it. i feel like actually trying to study, but once again i am frozen in place. all i want to do is sleep and take my mind off everything that is haunting me. i'm terrified my parents will be disappointed in me for falling behind, but i have to have hope that everything will work out. i guess i'll try and study now. maybe i'll update when i finish my test to see if i guessed my mark correctly. basically if i knew all the content and studied hard i think that i'll get around a 88%. not that bad of a mark but not the best either. if i add on my anxiety and the fact i only know 3/4 of the material, that mark drops to about a 70%. still, not that bad of a mark. i just hope that everything turns out okay.
including a photo of seungmin to comfort me and whoever reads this
