If secrets could Kill

Chapter 14: Karma

Chapter 14:

I was starting to feel like i was in the breakfast club and Mr.S was like Mr.vernon making us right essays about who we thought we were when in reality it made no difference to the person reading it.  To cilia i would always be the homewrecker,  and she would be the nieve princess.

"have you guys ever thought how our little group is kinda like the breakfast club"

"the what" mila ryan and me were walking over to starbucks before we headed back to the dorms.

"Breakfast club you know, Molly ringwald, judd nelson...you guys have never seen that?"

"i've seen it but how'd you come up with that?" 

"i dont know i guess i was just thinking about this stupid project and how no matter what i write cilia will still see me as what she wants.  Makes me kinda feel like Mr. S is like Mr.vernon maken us write these papers for no reason."

"ha i guess your kinda right...so wait are you sayin you and cilia will become friends secretly after getting high in the library but still act like the other doesn't exist in public haha"

"wow ohkay way to literal mila" we all started laughing as we finally made it to starbucks.  we sat down with our oreo shakes and starting reading over cilia's paper.

"ha guess you were right, this paper isn't going to change anything"

"i know but i can't believe she's honestly blamen me"

"well she did blantely call you a homewrecker"i gave ryan the shut the fuck up look

"i know what she called me ryan i read the paper, what i dont get is how she can't see that this is all kyle's fault.  Hell she broke up with him after. doesn't that mean she at least kinda gets it?"

"well what you write about her?" i looked over at mila, "er...well i wasn't as rude as her"

"what did you say?"

"i just said that she was nieve and nathsrtsttoolndshd"

"what was that last part" i glared at ryan, i had purposely mumbled that part

"i said she wasn't the smartest tool in the shed"

"haha thats great"

"what im sorry but if your boyfriend cheated on you and...."i trailed off as i thought back to my dream from earlier.  I was just as bad as cilia.  for the longest time i blamed heather.  I blammed her for him cheating, i blammed her for us pulling apart.  I used her as an excuse to break up with him.  I needed to talk to brandon.

"mya...ello u in there?" i looked between mila and ryan

"i have to talk to brandon" with that i was up and out the door leaving mila, and ryan behind with confused expressions, i needed to clear things up with Brandon.

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Brandons p.o.v

"hey is brandon here?" did i really just hear her voice...and asking for me? no i must have heard it wrong

"yeah hes in my room"

i heard footsteps, then a knock on the door. "er, come in?"

"Brandon we need to talk" What was happening? By the look on conners face he was just as confused as me.

"um...I don't know what you want me to say i've been trying to talk to you for Months and you didn't want anything to do with me" as i said the harsh words i could see the hurt and understanding in her face

"I know but...I was wrong ohkay.  I should have waited and heard you out.  I blammed heather for everything and that was wrong, i should have been blaming you.  You lied about going to cortland, that was the main reason that i couldn't trust you.  We were pulling away from each other, yes it had to do with how i felt about you and heather but honestly, i should have never said i didnt care if you went on a camping trip with her.  I mean you didn't even ask if i wanted to go."

"I didn't ask, because i knew how you felt about her"

"are you effing kidding me! you knew how i felt and thought it be better to ask if you could go being alone with her, knowing i didn't trust her, but it wasn't ohkay to ask me to come"

"I didn't want to choose between you and her"

"agh whatever, i just needed to clear my conscience with you"

with that she turned and left the room. what the hell just happened.

"You cheated on mya dude" It was then that i realized conner was still standing in the doorway.  I didn't answer, i just got up and walked out of the suite.

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Mya's p.o.v

What was i thinking, cilia was doing the same thing i had done she was mad at me like i had been mad at heather.  Even though i had acted like i was mad at brandon, up untill the conversation i just had with him i had been hurt more than mad.  He blantly told me he knew i thought heather was a slut, and yet he still hung out with her, he still had her spend nights at his house.  I broke up with brandon because of brandon, not heather.

I picked up my phone and found the number i was looking for

"hello?"

"um..heather hey its me"

"mya! what do you want"

"i wanted to apologize, well kinda"

"what are you talking about"

"listen, your not innocent, i already know that but i had no right to blame brandon and my fail on you.  It was his fault he was the one in the relationship.  He was the one who knew how i felt, and he was the one who made the mistakes that cost our relationship."

"mya listen, brandon and me have been bestfriends since before you moved here, so im sorry if you felt threatened.."

i wasn't gonna get into this with her right now i just needed to get my karma back

"Heather it's fine ohkay, the past is the past and lets just leave it there and move on"

"I could do that"  i could here the smie in her voice.  I wasn't really in any position to make enemies right now.

we talked for a little bit longer, she told me all about Cali. where she was going to school now.  And i told her about where i was, leaving out Brandons sudden appearence.

Once i got of the phone i felt whooped.  Who knew making amhends could be so exausting.  Now i was really wishing my life was like a john hughes movie and some hott guy would make me forget all my problems...wait some hott guys were my problem, i didn't need another one thrown in the mix....or so i thought.