I'm a Survivor

Chapter 3

I don’t even know what time it was when we got back to the loft all I knew was I was ready for bed. I woke the next morning and went straight into the bathroom to start throwing up, due to morning sickness. I hear footsteps coming towards the bathroom. I feel someone take my hair and pull it into a loose ponytail. Once they get my hair out of the way they start rubbing circles on my back. Once I’m done I lean back against them. “ I hate this,” “I know you do but just remember morning sickness is a good sign,” “It sucks though,” “ I know why don’t we get you back into you need to rest,” “I don’t want to be in bed I want to be out there with you guys,” “Ok let’s go get you situated on the couch," Once I was situated on the couch I started talking. " I wish Finn was here. I love you guys don't get me wrong but when I lost our baby in high-school he became my rock, and even though he was gone when I lost Lydia I still called him and left him a message,'' Wait really?" " Yeah why?" " I have his phone Carol wanted to get rid of it but it had so many memories on it that I asked Carol if I could keep it,give me a couple minutes to find it," Kurt gets up and walks over to his and Blaine's side of the loft as I lean back against Blaine "Comfy?" "Yeah," " Alright I found it," "Wait wouldn't his voicemail have a password on it?" "Yeah but before he passed Finn told me the pin to all of his stuff is the day Rachel and him started dating," "October ninth two thousand and ten," "Wow he was not kidding, the pin to get into his phone is one-zero-zero-nine," I smile at all the memories I have with Finn, some good some bad, but they were of us two. "Alright here we go, dang he has a lot of voicemails, this could take a minute," We listen to all the voicemails then we get to the one I sent. " Hey Finn I know you won't get this but I need to talk to someone and you were the first person I thought of,because you were with me when this happened the first time. I lost another one Finn. I lost a baby girl, Blake has a sister up there with you guys, and I know that if you were here you'd tell me it would be ok, and probably say something that didn't make sense but it did at the same time. God I miss you Hudson, I still listen and sing along to our song all the time, I never sing your part because that's your part and it always will be, I love you and I know that you are with Blake,and the baby girl I just lost I named her Lydia the name we were gonna use if Blake had been a girl, I need to go now Finnegan but we will be together forever, and ever amen just like we said. I love you Hudson, say hi to Blake and Lydia for me will you," The voicemail ended. "Wow, so I could have had a nephew," " Yeah Finn was so excited to be having a son, I think it hit him harder than it did me when I lost Blake," "God Finn was one of a kind, I remember one time I did face paint on him, and he freaked out when I went to clean it off him, I looked him dead in the eye and said ' what is you problem Finn it's just a moist towelette'," " I remember the frist time we had sex, which is coincidently was when we concived Blake he never stop asking me if I was ok, and he ment it, then there was this time when Becky Jackson left a piece of chocolate birthday cake on my chair and I sat on it Finn walked behind me until I could get out of school so no one saw my chocolate butt and thought I had messed myself," " Yeah that was just the type of person he was," " Alright I need to go to bed I have a shift tomorrow," "Wait Santana you are going into work tomorrow?" " Yeah I need to save up all the PTO I can for when the babies come." " But still you need time to recover," " I'm working at a diner, I'll be fine," " You can miss one day," " Hey Blaine want to see something funny it's the first time Kurt and Rachel performed in front of people," “You wouldn’t dare,” “ Oh but I would if you don’t drop this,” “ What is happening?” “ Fine I’ll drop this, but I still don’t want you to go to work,” “Fine make you a deal there is a book store just down the street from the dinner you guys can hang in there and come visit me on my lunch break will that ease your mind,” “No but it will do,” “Good now I’m going to bed,” “I’ll come with I’m tired too,” “What time do you work?” “ 9 to 4 I’ll have lunch around 12:30 1:00 ,” “ Ok goodnignight,” “Night,”