Chapter 10

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Rachel left to pick up Kurt, adn Blaine at 3:45. Quinn showed up at the house at 4:14. “ I know we agreed on four-thrity five o’clock but I got bored at home so I hope that it’s ok I came a little early,” “ Yeah that’s fine I’m waiting for Rachel and the boys to get back anyway so,” “I’ll be right back I’m going to bring my stuff to the basement,” “Alright,” By 5:15 everyone was here we were all sitting in the living room. “Alright I want to play a game,” “What kind of game Quinn?” “I want to test Santana’s music memory so how it works is we take turns saying a word, and San you can either sing the chorus of a song with that word in the title or the whole song with that word in the title,” “Ok,” “Who wants to go first,” “San the first word is fast,” "Staring' at you taking' off your makeup wondering why you even put it on I know you think you do but, baby, you don't need it wish that you could see what I see it when it's gone I see a dust trail following an old red Nova baby blue eyes, your head on my shoulder wait, baby, don't move, right there it is t-shirt hanging off a dogwood branch that river was cold, but we gave love a chance yeah, yeah, to me you don't look a day over fast cars and freedom that sunset river bank first time feeling yeah, smile and shake your head as if you don't believe me I'll just sit right here and let you take me back I'm on that gravel road, look at me on my way to pick you up; you're standing on the front porch looking just like that, remember that? I see a dust trail following an old red Nova baby blue eyes, your head on my shoulder wait, baby, don't move, right there it is t-shirt hanging off a dogwood branch that river was cold, but we gave love a chance yeah, yeah, to me you don't look a day over fast cars and freedom that sunset river bank first time feeling I see a dust trail following an old red Nova baby blue eyes, your head on my shoulder you don't look a day over fast cars and freedom that sunset river bank first time feeling   ‘Fast cars and freedom Rascal Flatts,'' I get up and waddle into the kitchen everyone follows me. “What are you doing?” “I’m gonna start supper,” “Ok the next word is officer,”  “Red and blue lights cover seventy five like a train miles of cars full of people with nothing to say the sun's out, you think that it's just another November day oh and I can't help but be mad knowing I'll leave and you're gonna stay they called me on a cell phone telling me there's an officer down and we prayed for a miracle, but you didn't come back around oh I kissed you goodbye a thousand times, but never like I'm doing right now oh we're 21 shots going up for the officer down I begged you to sew up that t-shirt that I sleep in now and badge number four fifty seven is all over town and people keep asking if there's anything that they can do, but no one can give me back you they called me on a cell phone telling me there's an officer down and we prayed for a miracle, but you didn't come back around oh I kissed you goodbye a thousand times, but never like I'm doing right now oh we're 21 shots going up for the officer down II held you tight when they told me it's time to let go and I know that somehow you knew that you weren't alone they called me and told me it's my officer down and I talked to you and begged you, but you didn't come back around oh I kissed you goodbye a thousand times, but never like I'm doing right now oh we're 21 shots going up I wish you had more time with us cuz thirty three years ain't enough, for the officer down ‘Officer down Hanna Ellis,'' I pull out the pan I need to brown the meat and grab the hamburger from the fridge. I put the pan on the stove and cut the meat packaging open. I make sure all the meat gets into the pan then I add a little water to the pan to make sure the meat won’t stick to the bottom. I turn the meat on  then grab the vegetables that I need to cut up out of the fridge and the cutting board and knife. “Alright what is the next word,” “Uh little,” “ In between the coats in the closet she held onto that heart shaped locket staring at a family flawless but it a pretty picture tonight mom and daddy just won’t stop it fighting at the drop of th faucet cuts through the walls catastrophic she’s caught in the crossfire puts her hands over her ears starts talking through the tears shes saying shes praying I wish words were like little toy guns no sting no hurt no one just a bang bang rolling off your tongue yeah no smoke no bullets no kick from the trigger when you pull it, no pain, no damage done (I wish words were like little toy guns) and just a bang bang rolling off your tongue (I wish words were like little toy guns) wish there was a white flag waving or that they were both just faking and it was just a game they were playing like shoot'em up cowboys leave the plastic pistols in the front yard, throw away the score card and just turn off all the noise. I wish words were like little toy guns no sting, no hurt no one, just a bang bang rolling off your tongue (I wish words were like little toy guns) yeah, no smoke, no bullets no kick from the trigger when you pull it, no pain, no damage done (I wish words were like little toy guns) and just a bang bang rolling off your tongue (I wish words were like little toy guns) oh I wish they didn't cut like a knife I wish they didn't break you inside I wish they didn't bang bang make you wanna run, yeah like little toy guns ‘Little toy guns Carrie Underwood,'' By the time I finished I had almost finished cutting the vegetables," “San the next word is one,” “ We’re seventeen in a small town week knees in a CSV door locked in the bathroom what’s it gonna be waiting on that test  never thought that they’d be putting those life plans on the shelf a couple american babies raising one up themselves One beer turns into a lit cigarette burnin' into a two beer buzz three beers turns into five and six then a love drunk kiss in the back of that truck just like that, everything rearranges life changes out of the blue it's just a Bud Light, but ain't it funny what one beer can turn into? Sesame Street on the TV a race car rollin' on a cardboard bridge crayon stick figure family stuck right there front center on the fridge flashback to two pink lines a whole bunch of praying and doubting felt like the end of the world now the world don't spin without 'em  oh, 'cause one beer turns into a lit cigarette burnin' into a two beer buzz three beers turns into five and six then a love drunk kiss in the back of that truck just like that, everything rearranges life changes out of the blue it's just a Bud Light, but ain't it funny what one beer can turn into? A  boy and a girl and a three on the tree K-I-S-S-I-N-G first comes lust, then the shotgun marriage six months later come a baby in a carriage you know what, y'all? You know what, y'all? the whole thing started with some alcohol the whole thing started with some alcohol one beer turns into a lit cigarette burnin' into a two beer buzz three beers turns into five and six then a love drunk kiss in the back of that truck just like that, everything rearranges life changes out of the blue it's just a Bud Light, but ain't it funny what one beer can turn into? a boy and a girl and a three on the tree K-I-S-S-I-N-G first comes lust, then the shotgun marriage six months later come a baby in a carriage that's not all (nah), that's not all (nah) here we go again, drinking alcohol, yeah ‘One beer Hardy,'' I finished chopping the vegetables and turned  and stirred the meat. “ Mr.” “It's the guts and it's the glory, a hundred stripes a hundred stories, it's the pledge of allegiance on the fourth of July, it's them hand-written letters from home, it's the sleepless nights alone, it's his new born baby he left with his wife. Mr. Red White and Blue lay down his life Mr. Red White and Blue, for these stars and stripes. Hey, from the fields of Indiana, from the swamps of Louisiana, to the golden coast of Californ', uncle Sam's the only family he's got, his purple heart beat won't stop, and his eighteenth birthday was the day he was born. Mr. Red White and Blue, lay down his life, Mr. Red White and Blue for these stars and stripes. Stand on the front line. Pay the ultimate price. Ohhh. He was the man of the house where he was born.His family is proud but torn. But if you knew him you would understand, he was raised on how to be brave, just to see the flag still wave, and then he came home with only one hand. he's Mr. Red White and Blue, lay down his life,  for these stars and stripes, stand on these front lines, he'll pay the ultimate price, (Mr. Red White and Blue) lay down his life. (Mr. Red White and Blue) for these stars and stripes. March in line, march in line,hey hey hey Mr.Red white and blue Coffee Anderson,” “Answer,” “ Late one night headin' on home driving too fast, radio on huggin' that curve a little to tight now he's hanging on for his life upside down and all alone hoping' he could reach his phone 80 years old watchin' TV all of a sudden it's hard to breathe she tries to get up then hits the ground wheel of fortune spins around sends up a prayer, thought this is it as she pushed the button around her neck they're the ones behind the scenes every day and night that friendly voice you need to hear when you're fighting for your life not every angel wears their wings but they're always there for you and me to them it's just a job after all when they answer the call  911, what's your emergency? she said, "I'd like to order a pizza, please" but Ma'am, you reached 911" she said, "I know, could you say how long?" ma'am, is everything okay?" "No, it's 413 Maple Way" is there someone in the room with you that you can't talk about?" she said "Yes sir, pepperoni please how long can it be now?" "I've got an officer a mile away, can you stay on the line?" she said "No thanks, I'll see you soon I'll turn on my porch light" they're the ones behind the scenes every day and night that friendly voice you need to hear when you're fighting for your life not every angel wears their wings but they're always there for you and me to them it's just a job after all when they answer the call they're the ones behind the scenes every day and night that friendly voice you need to hear when you're fighting for your life not every angel wears their wings but they're always there for you and me to them it's just a job after all when they answer the call when they answer the call they answer the call Answer the call Shanna Jackman,” I turned the meat down and brought it over to the sink to drain the grease. I drained all the grease then I brought the pan back to the stove I grabbed the seasoning from the cupboard and set it by the stove then grabbed the measuring cup measured out the correct amount of water and added the seasoning to the meat then I added the water I stirred it tell the seasoning was well mixed in then I put on the lid. I grabbed out all the other taco supplies and put them on the island. “So supper is almost done then after we eat we can head downstairs and work on the baby cloths I thought we could first organize them by size then wash them then we would go through them,” “Wow Son you really are on top of everything,” “With Archie I had to be,” We ate supper then headed to the bassment were there were so many totes of baby clothes. “San how did you get your old baby clothes,” “I gave my sister twenty bucks to drop them off here without our parents knowing,”  “Ok then,” We each sat down by our totes and got to work. “San next word is a,”  “Woke up late today and I still feel the sting of the pain but I brush my teeth anyway got dressed through the mess and put a smile on my face I’m getting a little bit stronger  I got a little bit stronger riding in the car to work, and I'm trying to ignore the hurt so I turned on the radio, Stupid song made me think of you I listened to it for minute, but then I changed it I'm getting a little bit stronger, just a little bit stronger and I'm done hoping that we can work it out I'm done with how it feels, spinning my wheels letting you drag my heart around and oh I'm done thinking, that you could ever change I know my heart will never be the same but I'm telling myself I'll be okay even on my weakest days, I get a little bit stronger doesn't happen overnight, but you turn around and a months gone by and you realize you haven't cried I'm not giving you a hour or a second or another minute longer I'm busy getting stronger and I'm done hoping that we can work it out I'm done with how it feels, spinning my wheels letting you drag my heart around and oh I'm done thinking, that you could ever change I know my heart will never be the same but I'm telling myself I'll be okay even on my weakest days, I get a little bit stronger getting along without you baby I'm better off without you baby how does it feel without me baby? I'm getting stronger without you baby and I'm done hoping that we can work it out I'm done with how it feels, spinning my wheels letting you drag my heart around and oh I'm done thinking, that you could ever change I know my heart will never be the same but I'm telling myself I'll be okay even on my weakest days, I get a little bit stronger a little bit, a little bit, a little bit stronger A little bit stronger Sara Evans," "Way," " He is sensible and so incredible and all my single friends are jealous he says everything I need to hear and it's like I couldn't ask for anything better he opens up my door and I get into his car and he says, you look beautiful tonight and I feel perfectly fine but I miss screaming' and fightin' and kissin' in the rain and it's two a.m. and I'm cursing' your name you're so in love that you act insane and that's the way I loved you breakin' down and coming' undone it's a roller-coaster kinda rush and I never knew I could feel that much and that's the way I loved you he respects my space and never makes me wait and he calls exactly when he says he will he's close to my mother talks business with my father he's charming and endearing, and I'm comfortable but I miss screaming' and fightin' and kissin' in the rain and it's two a.m. and I'm cursing' your name you're so in love that you act insane and that's the way I loved you breakin' down and coming' undone it's a roller-coaster kinda rush and I never knew I could feel that much and that's the way I loved you he can't see the smile I'm faking and my heart's not breaking cause I'm not feeling anything at all and you were wild and crazy just so frustrating, intoxicating, complicated got away by some mistake and now I'll be screaming and fighting and kissing  in the rain it's two a.m. and I'm cursing your name I'm so in love that I acted insane and that's the way I loved you breakin' down and coming  undone it's a roller-coaster kinda rush and I never knew I could feel that much and that's the way I loved you and that's the way I loved you I never knew I could feel that much and that's the way I loved you The way I loved you Taylor Swift,"  "Stop," "Why," "No that's the next word," "Ok, Stop right there when you see those boots and a uniform Coming your way get off your cell phone, your fancy ipad,and drop that old briefcase if you wanna see what a hero looks like this might be your chance before you go back home to your safe little world. Y'all don't you understand? these are the men and women that keep us living safe inside our homes and if you took one minute you're head would be spinning to see the things that they know so stop what you're doing walk up to him and tell him how much it means that every night you drift off to sleep they're all across the planet making sure you're free stop when you see a uniform don't you know who you just walked past with your headphones in today you're all concerned with your own little world just outside the terminal gate they're coming home from a whole other world that we know nothing about so the least we can give them is a standing ovation its time to hear us shout these are the men and women who keep us living safe inside our homes and if you took one minute you're head would be spinning to see the things that they know so stop what you're doing walk up to him and tell him how much it means that every night you drift off to sleep they're all across the planet making sure you're free stop when you see a uniform these are the men and women who keep us living safe inside our homes and if you took one minute you're head would be spinning to see the things that they know so stop what you're doing walk up to him and tell him how much it means that every night you drift off to sleep they've got it covered protecting you and me stop when you see a uniform Stop when you see an uniform Buddy Brown,"

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“Love,” “ I love my boots broke in, I love my Camo hat don't mind a little paint on my jeans, yeah I roll like that I love driving my truck across the railroad tracks if you hit it too quick, it'll hit ya right back I love a fresh cut field with a first frost on ow it shines like gold when the sun turned on I love the sound of them wheels with my baby singing along hen "The Boys Of Summer" comes on I love my small town world I love a country girl I love a Friday night an I love this life he sound of an ol' dirt road ollin' through mind an I love, man I love an, I Love This Life I Love that county line bar where they all know my drink he way she throws her hands up when that cover band plays I love that taste of her lips when she's been sipping that wine I still get drunk on her every time I love my small town world I love a country girl I love a Friday night an I love this life he sound of an old' dirt road rolling through mind an, I love, man I love an, I Love This Life h-o-oh and I love this life h-o-oh an, I love this life I love that ragged old barn that my grandpa made t was my whole world back in my innocent days I love that little white church, out on 109 t's where I hit my knees and thank the Lord for this life of mine I love my small town world I love a country girl I love a Friday night an I love this life he sound of an ol' dirt road rolling through mind and I love, man I love an, I Love This Life h-o-oh and I love this life h-o-oh an, I love this life h-o-oh and I love this life h-o-oh an, I love this life I love this life Locash,” “ Village,” “No, your mom don't get it and your dad don't get it uncle John don't get it and you can't tell grandma 'Cause her heart can't take it and she might not make it They say, "Don't dare, don't you even go there" "Cutting off your long hair" "You do as you're told" tell you, "Wake up, go put on your makeup" "This is just a phase you're gonna outgrow" there's something wrong in the village in the village, oh hey stare in the village n the village, oh there's nothing wrong with you it's true, it's true there's something wrong with the village ith the village here's something wrong with the village eel the rumors follow you rom Monday all the way to Friday dinner ou got one day of shelter then it's Sunday hell to pay, you young lost sinner ell, I've been there, sitting in that same chair hispering that same prayer half a million times it's a lie, though buried in disciples ne page of the Bible isn't worth a life here's something wrong in the village n the village, oh hey stare in the village n the village, oh there's nothing wrong with you it's true, it's true here's something wrong with the village with the village something wrong with the village there's something wrong in the village in the village, oh they stare in the village in the village, oh there's nothing wrong with you it's true, it's true there's something wrong with the village with the village something wrong with the village the village Warble come on guys at least try to challenge me,” “Alright fine how about boyfriend,” “ Let's be honest we don't got a lot in common when it comes down to it you can take his breath away and light up every room when you walk through it but I don't want you six foot legs and angel face and sophistication on't really want to causes scene but girl you got everything and I want your boyfriend I'm not gonna lie I'll be his girl when he tells you goodbye don't worry I won't take him cause I ain't that low I want your boyfriend just thought you should know that he and I go back so far oh my gosh we lived in his first truck first time we heard Shania Twain I think we were on our way to Lubbock and I know you think he loves you now een so many girls come in and out t sounds a bit insensitive but the truth is what it is I want your boyfriend I'm not gonna lie I'll be his girl when he tells you goodbye don't worry I won't take him cause I ain't that low I want your boyfriend just thought you should know, yeah on't know why you act so surprised an't you see it in his eyes ou must have known it all this time eah hat I want your boyfriend to tell you the truth I'll be right there when he gets over you what's meant to be will always find its way in the end I want your boyfriend I'm not gonna lie I'll be his girl when he tells you goodbye don't worry I won't take him cause I ain't that low I want your boyfriend I want your boyfriend I want your boyfriend just thought you should know boyfriend ReaLynn,” “Gonna,” “Ok my throat is starting to hurt so can I just name a song with the word in the title,” “Yeah thats fine,” “You're gonna miss this Trace Attkins,” “Silence,” “Silence Marshmellow featuring Khalid,” “Called,” “I called mama Tim McGraw,” 

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