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"How long are you gonna be like this?"

"...."

"Foolishly falling and caring for someone who stomps on you for something you didn't really mean or wish to do?"

"To be misunderstood by those whom you trust? Those whom you call "friends"?"

"Silence! I know they care! They wouldn't-"

"Leave you while not even trying to understand you?"

"..."

"You know, I have been making observations lately and-"

"What?"

"It seems you have a flaw which always made you end up falling"

"And that is?"

"Trusting"

"....I knew that a long time ago"

"Seriously? Why do you keep doing it then?"

"I-"

"Continuously trusting someone with your own burdens. Just hoping and relying on pure luck that they won't make you regret ever sharing that suffering. The hope that someone actually will come to your aid and be there for you. To be loyal? Isn't that the kind of friend you yearned for?"

"Well-"

"You yearned for them for you used to have them but because of shitty events, you were dragged away from them. Never ever knowing if they even remember you."

"Life can be cruel"

"Then why don't you-"

"Stop. Just stop. I know what you're gonna say and what your offering is. Even if I got impaled, there is no way I'll hurt them"

"While they continue to hurt you while not even asking if you're actually alright?"

"..."

"To hurt you and just focusing on themselves without ever knowing the toxins that you breathe in as you bear all that within"

"..."

"I know your hate. I know you're vengeful. You said it yourself that it's bad to keep all emotions inside. Believe me, I experienced it as well. It's intoxicating you, intoxicating me, intoxicating the both of us. I care for you so please"

"You're just reminding me of them with those words. Continuously blinded by the fact I'll someday actually have a unshakable friendship. Wishing for that to happen and so, I tell them my problems and every time what I feel at the end. Regret. Regret that I'm that trusting to someone. Regret that.... That"

"You let your own desires get the best of you and-"

"Let yourself be crushed by life's reality"
"Let yourself be crushed by life's reality"

"I hate emotions"

"I hate them too"

"Why couldn't I control them and maybe, just maybe, this hate, anger, and sadness, wouldn't be in our hearts for so long?"

"Yeah"

"To make you something you wish you wouldn't do or have but because you don't exactly control them, there you are. You did it and you can't exactly take it back. Just because you let emotions get the best of you."

"Look-"

"Listen, even if I'm tempted to, I wouldn't. They have been through so much. I don't want to put them through anymore"

"... Just keep in mind, you have to at least have them acknowledge how you feel when it comes to something. We can't keep going like this"

"It's weird how you're talking to your imaginary friend-"

"Don't you mean yourself?"

"Well, at least I know myself best and that I can actually comfort myself through whatever bullshit I can put in my brain"

"Tell me about it."

"Yeah"

"Just please, I too hate being hurt as much as you do for, after all, we are the same."

"I get it"

"At least, care for yourself. Like, actually care for yourself. Both of us can't tolerate being a molotov cocktail someday"

"I understand."

"Also"

"Yes?"

"Try your best not to be too trusting to others. You should know it's also hurting me."

"I can't promise but I'll do my best"