Life changing ~ James Graham fanfic

Unexpected surprise

Chapter 19:

1 week later (just pretend they've been in honey moon already)

I woke up in james bed alone, he wasn't there because he was at rehearsals, singing rehearsals, I quickly sprinted to the bathroom and threw up my insides. I had been like this for a few days and I had a feeling I was pregnant. I didn't want to be, me and james had only just got married and I didn't think I was ready for children. I had bought a pregnancy test the other day, but never used it, but decided I needed to take the test.
I had to wait 2 minutes until I found out my results, time went slow, but soon I had my answer, there was 2 vertical lines appearing on the screen, and I stood there in horror, I didn't want a baby, and I'm pretty sure neither does james. I hid my pregnancy test under my bed and went down stairs to find the phone book. It started to ring and the person on the other side of the phone picked up (😤=Katie 🙌=the other person) 🙌"hello, this is the local smith clinic, would you like to book an appointment?" 😤 "uh....umm...yh..I need and abortion" I managed to choke out, 🙌 "okay, we have a spare appointment Thursday afternoon at 3:30, will that be okay?" 😤" uh...yh my names Katie Gra..... Mota" 🙌 "okay see you on Thursday, sweetie" the smug assistant said before hanging up. I know it was a horrible decision but me and james weren't ready, and if I told him, I'm sure he would leave me. It was around 6:00 when the boys got in from rehearsals, they all rushed through the front door and flopped into the living room, exhausted. I still felt really guilty but I knew it had to be done, james came and sat next to me and I snuggled into his chest, never wanting to let go. Tom said we should watch some tv and we agreed we eventually settled in watching the whole box set of F.R.I.E.N.D.S for the rest of the night, but when we made it to the final episode I broke down crying, (because in the final episode Monica and chandler finally get there children and they looked so happy). All the boys turned to me as I started to wipe the tears away from my face, james wrapped his arms around me even tighter and kept asking me what was wrong, i quickly panicked and said that it was the day my parents last away, that made me feel even more guilty. They all looked at me with pleading eyes and embraced me In a group hug, but all I could think about was Thursday, and how selfish I was being.