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pant— pant— pant
"they're catching up." i exclaimed as i continued to run dragging him behind me.
"jinyoung." he called, but i chose to ignore him.
the way he called my name was husky yet so soft, as if he was giving up. well i choose not to give up whether he likes it or not, we'll fight at the very end.
"we're almost there, just hang on for a bit, okay? we can escape from here."
"jinyoung." for the second time, he called.
"just for a little bit, dae—"
"listen to me, jinyoung!" i dragged the both of us in a dark corner before looking back to face him only to avoid his eyes.
i knew he was crying,
trembling in fear,
and his face was saying he's done, i just knew it.
i hate it.
"no, no.. don't look at me like that, we can make it. i can free the both of us from all this misery, just stick to me for a bit, alright?" i traveled a hand to caress his cheeks.
i was also scared, scared of thinking about the worst possible things that might happen to the both of us. i just can't take it.
"look at me, jinyoung. you're not meeting my eyes." i shook my head from what he said, refusing to see him giving up.
i was too scared.
"jinyoung." i felt his cold hands on both of my cheeks, lowering his head to face me.
my eyes quivered at the sight. it was obvious in his eyes that he was struggling yet he managed to smile at me so warmly as if everything was okay.
i closed my eyes and held his hands that were on my cheeks, leaning my head on it, wishing to feel the warmth that used to touch me so dearly.
thick tears were flowing down so fast. this was the last side i wanted to show him. i didn't want him to see me at my weakest but here i am, looking like a child.
opening my eyes, i stared at his loving ones. there were tears in his eyes but he was still smiling at me so purely.
"listen to me," he went closer to lean our foreheads and rubbed it together, "run away while you still can, please?" between his sobs, he was pleading.
i shook my head repeatedly, "no, you can't do this to me. we were supposed to run away together, you promised."
i watched him bite the bottom of his lips, suppressing it from shaking but with no avail, "we don't have enough time... sob... please, let me go."
"i can't—"
"listen to me just this once, damn it!" my eyes widened at what he said, not the fact that he shouted and cursed at me but the fact that that was the first time i saw him being frustrated.
"please.. i can't do this anymore. i'm tired of running away again and again, i'm just sick of it.." he continued to sob and quiver.
"don't say that—"
"i've been running away all my life, i was so used to it, so so used to it.. but what makes this time different is that i'm running away with the love of my life.. sob.. this was what i've always wanted.. sob.. but i just can't destroy the things you want to pursue just because i'm miserable.."
