Nothing Can Stop Love

Chapter 7

Tom

I'm in my room when Sam enters, more angry than usual

"Well, well, well, if it isn't the life destroyer!" I watch him entering my room, trying to do something, but scared mom's gonna enter and leaves.

He comes back, and leaves and slams the door. I look at my watch and see it's 9 pm. I feel exhausted. So I tell mom I'm going to sleep and crawl under my blanket. I close my eyes and fall asleep. I wake up sweating and growning. I look at my bedside table with the watch. 2.30 am. I grab my cup with water and drink it all. I get out of bed and wander through the silent house. They're all probably asleep, except me.  I take my coat, put some shoes and leave a note if I'm not home before they wake up. I take my keys and leave the house for some fresh air. I call Tessa and we leave for the park. I turn right and meet Zendaya. "Hi Tom, can't you sleep either?" I manage a smile and we walk together. She must be missing Noon a lot. We walk a bit through the park. My phone rings but I ignore it.

After we walked through the whole parksshe turns around to me and starts kissing me. I get hit with a wave of alcohol. I push Zendaya away but she hold my waist and we both fall on the wet grass. "Z, you're drunk. Stop it please." She looks at me and wants to kiss me again when I slap her. She's drunk and not my type. And if it didn't came to her concious that I'm gay. I get up and try to help her but she's way too drunk to acknowledge that. I take Tessa's leash and leave Zendaya on the wet grass. I don't want to but she's drunk and that's not my problem. 

I go right to my house when I see mom outside looking around. When she spots me she lets out a sigh of relief and runs towards me. She hugs me so tight I can barely breathe. "Where have you been? I was worried!" I remember I let that note in the hallway. "Mom, haven't you read the note I left you?" She gives me a questioning look. "What not?" I sigh and look at Sam who's grinning at me. I walk towards him and slap him. "What the hell is wrong with you? You took that note out didn't you!" Mom comes standing next to me, furious. "Sam, what has gotten into you!" he shrugs. "Tom" What did I do to him. Or is it that mom knows what he was doing lately. "Stop blaming your brothers for your miserable life." She drags him inside the house, his gaze still on me. harry comes to me. "He turned out very miserable." he laughs. I want to join but then I remember that Sam is human too and that I don't need to laugh of him. Paddy comes out the door with a sleepy face. "What happened?" he rubs his eyes as if he just woke up from a 100 year nap. Harry takes his arm and yanks him into his bed. He comes back. "And why did you leave for a walk tho." I sigh. I can't tell him I had a nightmare about Jake dying on the loop. "Ju- just a nightmare" I smile weakly. Harry puts his hand over my shoulder. "Tom, please tell me what's going on." He's genuine worried. I sigh and tell him everything. HE's face turns white as if he saw a ghost. After a few minutes he starts. "I- I had the same nightmare on the loop too" I freeze. Wait what. Why does Harry get that nightmare. I shove him on the ground and run into the house. If Harry and Jake had something together- no, I can't think that. Jake and Harry were barely spending time togheter and if they were, it was because of me. 

I run in my room and shut the door, tears falling down my cheeks. Harry and Jake couldn't possibly had something. They- they weren't even close friends. I was the only one crying the hell out of me when Jake died and btw, Harry isn't gay. I fall into my bed, sobbing. The thought of Harry and Jake who maybe would've had something together- I can't. I hear a knock on my door and a soft voice after it. "Tom? Tom please listen." I stay quiet. I don't need Harry's explenation. If they had something together I don't wanna hear it. I really don't. It's worse that Harry lied that he wasn't gay. I can barely hear something. My thoughts talking about every possiblle thing. My door opens and Harry stands in the doorway. "Tom, let me explain please." I run to him and slap him multiple times. I just can't believe it! "YOU HAD SOMETHING WITH JAKE DIDN'T YOU!" He doesn't say anything. Great, explains everything. "It was just 1 night and I was drunk. It wasn't something serious." He says that as if he didn't made out with my boyfriend. "How could you!" he gives me an apologetic look. I don't need that right now. I kick him in the stomach and he falls outside my room. Excactly where I wanted to have him. I close the door and lock it. My fucking brother made out with my boyfriend and none of them said anything. I kick in my bed and I hear a few knocks on my door. At first I thought it was Harry, but the voice is soft. I open my door to seeing Paddy being cute as hell. "Why were you fighting with Harry." I don't say anything. I'm sure my eyes are puffy and red. "I'm not feeling wel" I force a smile and close the door. I feel bad to close it in front of Paddy, but I don't wanna see anyone right now. I lay on my bed and stare at the ceiling. Why God why. Wjy did u had to do this to me? I fall asleep while tears still roll off my cheeks.