Nothing Can Stop Love

Chapter 8

Tom

I wake up and go stand in front of the mirror. I cried last night and you can see my eyes red and puffy. I wash my face put some new clothes. I don't need my mom to come in my personal stuff and now fight with Harry. I still can't believe him. He could've told me that he made out with my boyfriend. My door opens and Harry stands in the doorway. Again. "Tom, just, can you forgive me?" He really does think I'll forgive him this easily. That ain't me. I look through Harry and he has the audacity to come sit next to me. He tries to hug me, but then he sees that I have my--touch me and I'll kill you--look. "What's the big deal anyways. Jake loved you and you loved him. What I did was a mistake." I look at him, unable to believe what he said. He does know he kind of cheated with Jake right. "Harry, idk how to say this in a kind way." I grasp for breath, cuz something's about to go down. "YOU CHEATED WITH MY BOYFRIEND SO FUCK YOU!" He's clearly shocked as Paddy who has been standing in the doorway for  5 minutes straight and has witnessed me screaming at Harry. I freeze. He sure remembers what I told him yesterday and he sure didn't forgot. "Breakfast's ready!" Saved by mom making breakfast. 

We sit at the table and see the frightened  looks on Harry and Paddy. Mom sees them too. "You alright boys?" they nod. No, they're not okay. I never scream and I never screamed at someone. That isn't me. I look at Sam who is still furious at me but doesn't say a thing. I think I just broke relationships with my brothers. "Why is it so quiet?" Dad looks around. No one spoke since we got to the kitchen table. "We're just a bit tired." Paddy says looking at his plate which he didn't touched yet. "Speak for yourself, I have a date in 3 hours." Sam looks around hoping we would say congrats but that's out of context. "Congrats sweetie!" He looks annoyed our way but then eats and leaves it. I stand up. "I'm not hungry." 

I leave to my room and lock the door. I lay in bed and tears start rolling down my cheeks. Why Jake, why. I hear a knock on my door. It's mom. "darling, you ok?" I don't answer and dive into my drawer where I have hidden drugs. I go into my bathroom and sits on my toilet. I take some and stuff them in my mouth. "Tom? You ok?" "Yes, I'm fine mom! I just wasn't hungry." I hear her walk away. I come out the bathroom and sit on my bed. I stuff some more and look at my ceiling. Life would've been easier if Jake was here. He didn't knew about my drug collection. No one does. It's my secret. And I'd like to keep it this way.  "Tom, I need to speak with you!" Sam hopes that I would open the door but I don't want him to witness me doing drugs and with red puffy eyes. I hide my drugs in my drawer and splash my face with water. I open the door. "Mom said you'd want your food." he gives me my food which I didn't touched since this morning and leaves. I look at it and I feel a feeling of food coming back. And I didn't ate a thing. I go to the toilet. I hang my head over the toilet but nothing comes out. I go downstairs and see my mom on the couch. I grab my jacket. "I'm going to Maggie." I close the door behind me. Maggie found something from Jake when she was rummaging through his belonings which was a letter that was adressed to me. She didn't opened it. So she called me. I get in my car and drive to Maggie's. I see her on her porch already waiting for me. "Hi Tom, this way. His room is a mess, so it was hidden under a pile of clothes. Don't mind it being messier cuz i'm looking through stuff that can be thrown away." She walks into his room, steps over some big piles of clothes. She picks up a red/white letter from the floor and gives it to me. "Here. I haven't opened yet but I'm curious." I manage a laugh and take the letter. "Ok, Ima read it loud then. "

"Dear Tom, I sincerely don't know how to start this. When you read this I'll be probably be dead. But it was for you're own good. And that is, that I faked my death. Ik what you're thinking and it's because I did something horrible. I made out with Harry, or Harry did. We were both drunk at that time. We realized it the day after that what we did, wasn't fair to you. He didn't knew I was gonna be riding in that river intentionally. I made a deal with the doctors to put something in my arm that would kill me slowly. When I went with the car in the river, It wasn't bad enough to kill me. I'm sorry. 

Yours truly, Jake"

I  freeze. Maggie looks at the letter. She grabs it and reads it herself. "That bastard! He didn't even think about me!" I still can't believe it. "He- intentionally killed himself-" Maggie looks at me. She runs to the kitchen and comes back with a glass of water. "Here" I take it and sit on the bed. "I can burn his things." I look at Maggie who's probably planning to burn his stuff for real. "Uh- uhm I- I need to go ho- home." I stutter and go oustide and ride home.I pass by the river where I thought Jake slipped. That bastard. I get home with red and puffy eyes. I've been crying the whole ride and all I wanna do is go in my bed and don't talk to anyone. I go up in my room, lock the door and lay in bed. I see the drawer with drugs and without thinking I take an overdose. Suddenly everything gets dark.