Is this a book?

I wish I knew some things sooner

So I was talking to a councler for some advice  andall I have to say is FINALLY someone on Trevor  with some relationship advice Trevor proect is a great place to go to when you have no one to talk to but  you think a dozen counclers I talked to one of them  could have something about relationships but none of them until one  and well too late for it anyways but I dont remember there name so lets just sat carl even though im pretty sure it was a girl i dont know it was just text it was free councling so  owell but Carl said that "it's normal for friends to get in fights it can stregnthen the bond between friends but dont start a fight that ends the relationship you'll regret it for the rest of your life if you two where true friends if you think you have offer to set things right  things will be different but dont let that thought scare you it can sometimes be better then before"

so I asked how and Carl didnt hve much to sya

"Well ask I guess  just try and try again and hope you didnt  screw things up to bad with your friend"

Well what do I do? I dont know jack shit about this stuff Carl also said dont give up but I did something real stupid so I dont think theres a point trying but maybe there is? hell if I know

but I'm theres something i wish i knew or know right now  is why do i still feel like a peice of fucking shit  that was dibbed to ugly to exist in the history of ugly shits in fact it's now different it feels worse far more guilt ridden  in that factor  why does emotions have to be confusing I was forgiven but that just makes me feel worse I feel like a sack of shit that was beat by hitlers cock