Is this a book?

Nuk sem der

hay whats up.

where where you?

I was sleeping I think...

Well at least your here now.

You okay? I uh found out what happened when I was gone...

Can't you tell?

Your right I can just thought it be nice to ask you know

Well it was but it's not much from you

I know I wish I could be more but well I can't

Why

Why what

why everything

I dont know

Why can't I stop thinking about it

Well you've lost lots of friends but this is the first time you cuased the loss to happen while all the ones before... wel yes you never had a friend for over a year  but all of them where not real friends. Like Alexis, Darren, Keleb, Terresa, Evelyn,cody, Cory, Trish, Zack, Patrick

Can you not go through them all right now, some I'd prefer not to remember

Yeah sorry just look they all hurt you before for yes this one had hurt you plenty of times but this one actually cared for you unlike the rest, the rest wheren't real friends because they never cared or gave you the light of day they hurt you a lot and used you for things made you do embaressing things 

Yeah like eat food from the trash

You had to do it because if you didnt you would've had to go a third day without anything to eat you can't just live off of water and juice you know that and you knew it then and I'm sure the videos still out there but at least no one would reconize you from then to now

Yeah

They where evil to abuse you like that you already had to deal with enough as it is from home you just did wht you had to

But why though, why did I try so hard to live or continue on?

well you gave up pretty fast  but why did  you continue on? I dont know.

What do you know?

I only know what you do, and even then theres limits

Then how could you have known things I didn't? like all those times you told me something was wrong with someone or another

Well I don't know how to explain that 

How about when you knew where something was or what something is how could you know something I didn't

I dont know I can't explain it I'm just apart of you

Okay fine 

Your gonna post this on that website ain't ya

Yeah probably

You know you probably shouldn't 

Well it nums the pain a little

Then I guess I can't stop you

Not really

You know enough people are scared of you already

Shut up about that, most of what I did was to protect them

No need to snap about it I'm just saying it's probably best to keep our conversations to ourselves

Yeah and if more people get scared of me the better because then I won't have to worry about hurting them

That makes no sence and you know it

It makes perfect sence to me 

Stop listening to Ash you bloody idiot

So what who else am I supposed to listen to the father that never answers my prayers

If you die then I die

So what if you die 

I have my own wants and need you know

Your just apart of me so you dont matter just as much as I do

I dont need to get into to this right now you moron, clearly I can't help your still stuck in this stupid hole again. Just did you sence that the other day

Sence what?

That feeling of there being a second you.

Yeah I did why

It's pretty odd 

Yeah probably just my mind playing tricks on us, besides what are you still doing here anyway

Trying to help you before you get us killed

I'm fine it's just my asthma kicking back up and maybe the flu

You say that now, but if you have a near death experience bacuase of this you owe me

Fine

just try and find something to keep you away from what you've been doing to yourself okay?

I'm not strong enough to do it anymore and you know that

Well try to open up to someone

You know I just can't open up to whome ever I want to

I know just  your near to the cracking point and your gonna do something crazy

What does it matter

Okay time to go dads coming you gatta work outside, I'll do the usual and keep an eye out for coyotes