Is this a book?

random talk i guess

So I was trying to be helpful and check up on Felix because he was having a rough time and mentioned suicide so I told him what I tell myself all the time. "I know the number is probably few but still. You shoud live on because they care about you!"  and I'm pretty sure it was a stupid thing to say. I'm pretty sure I hurt him pretty bad.  But I meant no harm though  I can tell what I said hurt him. H told me "My own friend doesn't even believe s lot of people care about me. How surprising."  I think I should just leave him be for now on and not talk to him anymore. Keep it the way things are, friends. I don't want some one else to hate me. I'm just trying to be nice  and caring but yet I hurt people, why?

I was originally wondering why my ribs wheren't healing right. then I remember thats where I get stroke the most, in the same point where the fracture was. So I guess I know why it not healed yet. but I have to say one thing, thank you Queen for helping me when I first got the fracture, if it wasn't for you I wouldn't know how to care for it. Sadlt though the spot is swollen sore and bruised. Which is something at least, I normally dont bruise very easy. At least I can tend to the injuries properly now. To be honest if it wasn't for Queen I probably would have died or at least have a raised risk of death.

I had recently gotten a game called Horizon Zero Dawn. Its a game about a world the has long since fallen after a world war. The only thing that remains from the old world is  the ruins and the machines that was made by man. after the war man kind has fallen  un able to revover the world they once had going back further  than the dark ages. to a primitive stage in life, back to being a stage just after cave people. many years later, the old wolrd forgotten, ruin forbiden, and with machines running wild being built by factories that survived the tourment of time. theses factories continue to make these machines, but still set in the settings of being at war  it labels all humans as enemies. In current time you play as a young outcast named Aloy. She was found at one of the many vault doors that holds the secrets of the old world, these doors are considered as gods/godesses. Aloy was found at the foot of one as an infant. she was raised as an out cast  and seeks to find out who her parents where and figure out why was she targeted by a cultist group. It is a vast open world adventure game where you combine primitive weoponery such as bows, spears, and sling shots, with futuristic tech you can gather from machines. There are a wide variety of machines repusenting  animals we know and once knew, such as bulls, alligators/crocs,  horses, panthers, vultures, and more of modern day animals. While with the mix of ancient beasts like raptors, rexes, pteradactols, sabertooth cats and more.  With these mixtures of animals made entirely of metal and wires, they provide unique combat  that will keep one on there toes. Playing through the game  the first machines you face will have new tricks up there sleeves when you meet them again later in the story.  First time around some just run while others throw themselves at you poorly and randomly later on they learn how to scan for you, create a flash of light that'll blind you, freeze you, burn you, electricute you, and there battle patterns become far more complex making harder and harder to stay alive fighting against the machines. Even if you find an easy way to take them out, they learn how to make it harder on you to exploit there weaknesses. The story is easy to follow but to understand fully you need to pay close attention to the story to see its meaning within Aloys soul searching. I have yet to complete the story line but I have yet to be unsurprised by what it has to offer, a challenge around every corner. I have found a glitch in the game where if you get hit  and it knocks you over, if times right you press a move direction, dodge, jump and aim you can quickly get back up and glijde across the ground and trough walls getting away from enemies allowing you to have a bit more breathing room in a fight. For a game that came from 2015, its graphics are truly appealing to eye, rivaling graphic from current times. I highly recomend this game to all who enjoy open world games.