Letters To My Person.

I will follow the sounds...

Do you think... that maybe this was it?.
That I am bound to love the ones who cannot love me back?
That I am sworn by an oath written underneath the tides of my bleeding heart.
Do you even think of me anymore?
Is my name more or less a trinket of memory that shall forever be left to turn to sand...
Is my face just any other now?
A fleeting image, of someone who you once knew better than any other?
You have become my new favorite nightmare.
Because its the only one I actually fall for now.
Only to wake up with the sudden realization that it wasn't real.
But at least in that moment... I got to feel your presence in my life again.
Do you hold any memories of back then anymore?
Or did you leave them at the door the last time we spoke..?
I knew deep down the truth.
What was coming was bound to happen.
Did you know it too?...
If only I was actually enough to stop it from happening.
I was just another falling board..
To be lost adrift.
A step merely forgotten.
A chapter closed.
A new one soon to be opened.
I thought my greatest fear was being forgotten.
But I'm not afraid of being forgotten...
I've been forgotten by so many already.
I can handle that.
My whole life I've handled that.
But the idea of losing you.
Crippled me.
How do you have so much power over me?
I've survived every heartbreak before.
Why does it feel like I'm incapable of surviving you...
To think..
I realized how afraid I really was of losing you.
But...
You were already gone.
Off on your next grand adventure.
So if you forget about me...
Or have already forgotten.
At least know I hope it's a good one for you.
Please be kind to yourself.
Don't let anyone get in the way of your dreams, they are yours to chase, so chase them with that fiery passion I know you have.
Don't be afraid to put yourself and your needs first, do not sacrifice your comfort for the others happiness.
Please dont ever let anyone make you feel less beautiful than you truly are...
Radiant like a trillion stars all burning at once...
But whatever you do.
Please, believe...
Believe like I do.
That you'll change the world for the better.
I know you can, you changed mine for the better.
So you can definitely change the rest of it too.
I believe in you.
Always.