Letters To My Person.

Night Terrors

I didn't want this to be the place I told you.
But hell I have no clue if you'll ever even read this... If you're even there or ever coming back..
The night terrors are back...
Theyve been back for awhile actually, a long while.
I feel like falling apart every time I wake up.
Desperately telling myself to just relax and try to sleep again but I can't.
I don't sleep well enough anymore...
But to you thats nothing new.
Im tired, and the nightmares have changed.
Like everything else around me things are changing and I can't seem to catch up... I've never been able to just, catch up.
You're gone and every time I even think that it hurts... no less than it ever has before.
Why?...
Because im left in my own head wondering to myself what went wrong.
You and I both know thats not my best place to be, stuck inside my own head.
I doubt you'll ever care even if you read this...
I doubt so much now that it's almost impossible to tell whose being genuine anymore.
Love has started to feel like a completely fake concept now.
With more and more proof of this hitting me day in and day out...
Im sorry for this letter being so short.
I promise I'll write more for you when im in less pain from the night terrors...
I believe...