For people that aren't loved

-The real beginning?-

Nico Ernest Campos
My first week has passed and today is Monday again. I have practiced a lot for the musical and still do everyday. No one had a talk to me except the teachers since they have to. I guess it's kinda lonely but it's not like I want it to happen or anything. Well maybe I do but I am too anxious to start a conversation. My parents tried to help me with that but I didn't do it because I acted to be busy. I started writing music at a young age and it was always an excuse to me when I don't want to do something and my parents respect that. It's not like I do it on the daily but I'm too afraid for something to happen when I do lie.

My first class is English and after that will be Maths with Akino. I hope he forgot about what happened in the cafeteria. Maybe we both could be friends. I wanted to talk to him about the musical but than I remembered what happened on that day so I stayed quiet. I wanted to ask if I audition for Evan, if I have to kiss Zoe. If I do than there's no way I'm gonna do that. I am brave enough to be the main character but I won't ever kiss someone just for a musical. It has no meaning behind it. I guess I'm hoping for Akino to talk to me. First time ever I'm happy someone that I don't know will talk to me. Maybe I'm brave enough to even talk to him.

I was too much in my thoughts so that the class was over and I could go to Math class. I may even smiled to myself but hid it under my hair. I was literally running through the halls just for Math class. I felt so free and I didn't know why. Everything felt different and it's just talking to a new friend. Forget that I have math I just hope to see Akino. Going into the room I was a bit early and no one was here yet. A few minutes later others come in and my head turns directly to them. I saw Akino between them. He looked at me and smiled at me. He sat next to me and waved. I waved back trying to hide how excited I was. I instantly looked to the front where the teacher came in. I couldn't even concentrate that much. I only thought about hiding my excitement. I could feel my cheeks glowing. I'm glad the teacher is handing us out some paperwork to do instead something social.

In the middle of the paperwork I felt someone look at me so I looked to Akino who was looking at me and tried to get my attention. "Hey Nico, why did you never talk to me?" He whispered. What should I answer. I don't even know. Maybe because of the anxiousness but I don't know if he would understand. He looked at me with confusion. I was struggling to find an answer. "Uhmm.. I am really anxious and I don't know how to talk to people. I did wanted to talk to you but I couldn't." Wow I sounded like a rapper saying that sentence. I looked between the teacher and Akino so we wouldn't get caught talking. He was smiling at me. "Don't worry, Nico. That's totally fine. I hope we can start being friends, you seem really nice." He said with the warmest voice ever. I felt my lips form into a smile. I should stop smiling I will come up as creepy. "Uh yeah sure. I hoped that ever since I saw your club." What did I just say? I'm gonna panic after this class.

I finished my papers and gave it to the teacher. He said I can go earlier so I looked behind me for Akino's eyes. He gave me a look to wait so I did. Just a minute after he finished as well. "Let's go to the football place. I want to get to know you more." He lead me the way to the football place. Marc never showed me this place, weird. I was full of confusion in my face which Akino noticed. "Oh uhm I've never been here, Akino. Marc Never showed me this Place." I looked shyly at him and I saw him laughing.
"Did you just call my by my full name? I'm sorry if I scared you with my laugh but no one calls me Akino except teachers. Call me Aki instead I like that way more."
"Ok well then, Aki. What do you usually do in the theatre club?"
"Well, Nico." He started teasing me which made me smile a bit. "We act and sing which I think is self-explained why."
I looked at him with confusion but then I realized he was joking and I started chuckling. He joined me and continued "I'm just joking, little one. We play games that boost our confidence and we do vocal training. Every Friday and sometimes Monday we do that. At the moment we do lots of planning for 'Dear Evan Hansen'." Great nickname, big one. I bet he wants me to join. I mean I obviously want to but if he would ask me I would go there even more.
"Makes sense. I practiced Evan's songs a bit since I kinda relate to him. If I audition for him do I have to kiss Zoe?" Good. The first question is off my chest. He looked at me actually thinking about it. "No, you don't have to. Except you want to." He smirked at me. Oh god this kid is an actual comedian. I jokingly hit him and rolled my eyes.
"Oi that was a bit mean, wasn't it?" He joked smiling at me. "No I don't think so. You deserved it." I answered him. I felt safe with him. I was not under pressure or felt like he was fake. He also makes me bring out my real smile. I can feel we'll be good friends.

"Hey can I have your number since you don't wanna kiss Zoe?" Did. he just make a gay joke? He laughed and I rolled my eyes but started to blush. I gave it to him and told him that I have to go soon. He told me that he had to go to the same bus stop so he'll come with me. "You have to know I actually want to play Conner so we can practice lines together. Would you be fine with that?" He asked me sounding serious for the first time today. "I would absolutely love that. I have a feeling my parents would like you." I answered and faked a smile. Aki looked like he knew it was fake and looked at me with a look that said 'Are you okay?'. He seemed a bit concerned probably because my fake smile looked neutral. I nodded to him and sat down on a bench near to the bus stop. He sat next to me an scouted closer.
"You don't have to answer this but how long did you have this anxiousness?" He tried to ask as politely as he can.
"Uhm.. some years now. I'm sorry if it shows I'm actually comfortable with you, Akino." I tried saying with a lot of stutter in it. "I meant Aki, I'm sorry." I come off as an anxious kid that I wasn't before to him.
"Hey shh don't worry you can call me Akino I just prefer Aki and I'm so sorry that you have to go through that. Do you want a hug?" He is such a warm hearted person. I might cry because he is too kind. I hesitantly hugged him and he hugged me back and patted my back.

He comforted me and told me to meet up with him soon. He told me how amazing vibes I gave off. Soon enough his bus came and he said goodbye to me which I returned. Later on my bus came and I was relieved to be home but also sad I couldn't see Akino anymore. Tomorrow is another good day to talk to him..