For people that aren't loved

-Jealousy-

Nico Ernest Campos
I got closer with Akino each day and I always thought back about how I said that he's my Happiness. I'm so glad I said it. He was so happy to be around me. We started to sit with his friend group more but he only kept talking to me.
I was so happy. It was maybe the best week in my life. He is so amazing and charming. I still remember how he told me a bit about his past. He won't fully open up but I won't do it either just yet so it's fine.

Today is another day of theatre club and I will see them all again. Amber is really nice so I'm excited to see her again. She always helped me out with my role if Aki couldn't help and she plays Zoe really good. I bet this was her dream. I talked to her about our dreams a bit and she was really sweet but just said some basics and no details but that's totally fine. She forms words in a really sweet and polite way which I totally adore. I'm only a bit away from eating in the cafeteria with Akino's friends. It's in 5 minutes till I can see him again and him telling me to eat up. It's the thing that keeps me motivated for school.
Him caring about me and my health.
It just rang so I got my stuff and went to my locker to keep everything in there so I won't forget something in the cafeteria. After that I ran to the cafeteria searching for Aki. I couldn't find him sitting anywhere.

"Searching for me?" He asked me from me behind and I jumped.
"Dear Lord, don't scare me like that." I replied with my hand to my heart. He just laughed and took my hand and led me to the table. I just kept looking at him since I was kinda mad he scared me. I told him he could pick something for me since I didn't care what I'll eat today.
"Why did you only get one plate?" I asked looking at the food he brought.
"I'm not really hungry but I'll share with Malou a bit." He replied looking to Malou smiling. "You still have to eat everything, Nico. Don't care what I eat."
Why can Malou care when I can't? He seems to be distant. It's like he just didn't care about his Health at the moment. I want to care but if I'll just say anything he would shush me. I didn't talk to him because of that reason. I just keeps looking down and ate what was on my plate. Akino had his face directed to the others and he was eating of Malou's plate. I was keeping my thoughts to myself and prepared them for later.

I finished soon since I wanted to go earlier.
"Oh, you're finished?" Akino asked before I got up. I nodded and kept going.
"Wait for me, little one." He commanded. He took my hand in his smiling at me. I was a bit confused but I just kept looking forward. As we arrived at the stage most of them were already there. I sat down next to Amber who saved me a place. There was no room for Akino to sit next to me so he sat next to Malou. The lesson began and we practiced some lines. Then we had a short break and I talked to Amber. I talked to her about a lot of stuff and she always knew an answer. As if she was born to answer them.

"Well who is your best friend here?" I asked her wanting to be to know her more.
"Well I was really close with Mae over there but she changed. I don't want to tell you about it just yet. Maybe ask Akino if you guys are having a deep talk or something." She replied. I feel bad for asking. She looked disappointed.
"I don't know if I want to ask him anything right now. He seems distant." I told her looking in her eyes so she knows I'm not lying. I noticed we had the same eye colour. Hers were more lighter than mine but they still looked a lot alike.
She giggled and looked over to him.
"That Happens a lot. He gets over people fast. That's why he has Malou. Someone he can gossip about to everyone." She looked back to me. "But I don't think he got over you. He constantly talks about you if I ever talk to him. He once told me to not talk to you because we did talk too much." I was happy she told me those things. I thanked her for telling me all this. She responded with a nod and we got back to acting.

Our teacher recommended a game 'Finish the Lyrics'. Someone sings a Dear Evan Hansen Song and the other one ends the line. Amber started with "Did he say anything else? Nico?" And she looked at me and got me to stand next to her.
"Uh.. he thought you looked really pretty or.. um.. it looked pretty cool when you put indigo streaks in your hair." I kept going.
Malou went in the middle and kept going with "He did?" And giggled.
"And he wondered how you learned to dance, Like all the rest of the world isn't there." Akino continued.
"But he kept it all inside his head, What he saw he left unsaid." Someone else said
"If I could tell her. Tell her everything I see, if I could tell her, how she's everything to me.." I kept going. Amber looked at me and we decided to sing a verse together.
"But we're a million worlds apart." We harmonised so good together and ended the game with that.

"That was gorgeous, Nico." Amber said to me and we packed our stuff so we could go home.
"You were.. I mean you're vocals were gorgeous, too." Oh god I didn't meant to say that. She just laughed and hugged me Good Bye. I couldn't see Akino, so I just went alone. I was alone at the bus stop and it started to rain. Later I saw Akino with Malou join me.
"Great vocals, Nico." Malou complimented me.
"Yeah especially when you sang with Amber." Akino said with a sarcastic undertone and Malou nudged him.
"Thank you. You both." I fake smiled at them and got out my phone so I could listen to music. In my eyesight I could see Akino and Malou arguing or something like that. I ignored it. He acted like we aren't close so why should I act like that. My bus came earlier today. I looked back wanting to say goodbye but I decided not to. Akino did wave goodbye.

As I got home I kept thinking about how it just went from the best week to somewhat strangers. He said he stopped manipulating but it seems like I made it worse. I didn't want to think about it but it was the only thing my brain kept repeating. So I just dealt with it and listened to my music and fell asleep..