Secret affair | p.jm || 21+ |

~18~

•Jimin•

After yesterday, Y/N hasn't spoken one word to me. She hasn't even looked at me. Not once. After the second time yesterday morning, she had gotten up and went into the bathroom. The shower was running for a while until she had gotten out. When she came of the bedroom after getting dressed to get some water and went right back in.

Any time she came out, she avoided me. Any time I tried to talk to her, she completely ignored me. Like I wasn't even there. I can't help but feel a little hurt.

I'm sitting at the table when I hear the bedroom door open. When she appears, she looks my way but quickly looks away. "Y/N." I call her only to get no answer. I sigh as I watch her stand by the door and put her boots on. She opens the door and walks out. I quickly get up and put mine on and chase after her.

"Y/N wait." I yell out to her as I try to catch up.

Damn she walks fast.

I slip a little but catch myself. "Fuck." I mutter to myself. I finally jog to her and stop in front of her. She goes to turn around but I step in front of her again. "Why are you ignoring me?" She stands still and not looking at me.

"Did I do something wrong?" She finally looks up at me. "No. I did." Her voice cracks and that's when tears begin to form in her eyes. My mouth parts open to say something but she beats me to it. "I'm the one who did something wrong." A tear drops and I got touch her cheek but she backs away. "I'm just cheated on my boyfriend. Your best friend!"

But he's cheating on you!

My mind screams, but my mouth stays shut. Why can't I say anything?!

"Jimin, we can't do this." She says and I take step forward, but she steps back. "I'm with Jungkook." My jaw clenches. It's always him.

"Why? He doesn't love you." I spit out, surprising both myself and her. I didn't mean to say that, but I'm so fed up with hearing his name and what he's doing to her, it just slipped. I see hurt flash on her face but then it disappears. "But I love him." I gently shake my head. "But you also love me, Y/N." Another tear falls.

"Yeah, and it's wrong." She turns around and walks back up to the cabin leaving me standing there. So I turn around and start walking down the trail. I end up back at the lake. I find a rock and sit on it.

Im so stupid!

I should've never fallen for her.

I shouldn't even started hanging out with her in the first place.

Because now, we're both hurt.

She loves me, but loves him and hates herself because she cheated, so she's hurt.

And so am I. Because I know I'll never fully have her.

Hours and hours go by. I don't even know how long it's been, but I know it's been long since the sun is starting to set. I sigh and get up. By the time I get back to the cabin, it's going to be dark. So I try to walk as quick as I can. I shiver at the cold.

I should've worn a thicker jacket.

The darker it gets, the harder it gets to see. Luckily for me, I can see the lights from the cabin coming into view. It's already quiet up here, but it's completely silent when it gets dark. No birds chirping. Not even the slightest breath of wind. The only thing heard is the snow crunching beneath my feet and my breathing.

I finally reach the cabin and walk up the three steps. I look through the window on the door and see her sitting on the couch, her back towards me. As I open the door, she turns around and lets out a breath. But I look away.

Taking my boots off and my sweater, I start walking towards the kitchen. "I was worried." She says quietly, but I don't respond. "I thought something might have happened since you were gone so long and it was getting dark." Her voice is small, barely above a whisper.

Again, I don't respond.

I drink a glass of water and set it on the counter. "Get some sleep, we need to leave early." I say without looking at her and start walking towards the bedrooms. But before I get to the hallway, I feel a hand gently wrap around my wrist bringing me to a stop.

I turn around to look at her. No words are said as we stare at each other. She suddenly wraps both arms around my and lays her head on my chest. I gulp and my breathing quickens. At first my arms hang there but then end up wrapping them around her.

We stand like that in silence for a few minutes. "What do you want Y/N?" I ask her and she takes a second to answer. "I don't know." I sigh at that. "Do you-"

"I don't know Jimin." She pulls away and backs up enough to look at me. "I don't know. And I'm with Jungkook." I chew my bottom lip and shake my head. "Yeah, I know. You keep saying that." And I'm tired of hearing it.

She groans and turns around to walk into her bedroom and I follow behind. She stops in the middle of the room as I stand in the doorway. She finally turns to face me. Her eyes have tears in them again and my heart clenches. "As much as I want to, I can't." Her voice cracks. And I shake my head.

A lump forms in my throat and swallow.

"I love you Y/N." I watch as a tear slips and her lips begin to quiver. "I love you. I'm not going to give up and I'll keep fighting for you while someone who doesn't deserve you isn't." Her eyebrows scrunch and another tear falls. But she doesn't say anything.

She stands there silently and sniffles once. "So I'll ask you again. What do you want?" She shakes her head and my jaw ticks. "Do you want me or not?" And again, she doesn't say anything. "I guess I have my answer." I turn around to walk to my room. "No, Jimin wait."

I feel her wrap her arms around me. She sobs into my back and I turn around. "I want you, I do." She cries and hold her as she cried into my chest. "But I don't know what to do." I rest my cheek on the top of her head and I let her cry. She lifts her head to look at me and bring a hand up to wipe her tears.

I hold her face and leave a soft kiss on her lips. "Get some sleep. We'll talk about this later." I say and let go of her. I start to turn around but she stops me. "Stay." She mutters. "Stay with me. Please." I sigh and let her drag me to the bed. She lays on my chest and I wrap my arms around her. I sigh as I stare at the ceiling.

I kiss her forehead and close my eyes, drifting off into sleep.

I have a feeling this isn't going to end well.