The One I Fell In Love With. [5SOS] (L.H) (ON HOLD!)

Chapter 3- The Curiosity.

So its the next day and im on my way to school. Im really hoping,that I'll be able to at least get to make one friend, but then again I'm putting alot of hope on one day.

In my old school I had alot of friends at the beginning of the year but then when I got use to them I started to be more like myself around them and thats where it went downhill, I always thought that I was this happy, amazing, friendly type of person, then it hit me, I really wasn't, I was this annoying lame girl that thought she could do anything.

I started to loose my friends each day and I became very sad, I started to get lost in my mind and that's not a good thing, to be lost in a teenage girls mind all alone at night. My mind started to tell me things like, 'you're too ugly no wonder you have no friends', or 'you're fat you shouldn't be wearing clothes like that' (like crop tops and shorts) and other things like that, but my favorite one of all was the 'no one cares about you, you should just leave and no one would notice' that's the one that has made me think about myself and start to get into habbits of doing things my parents always told me never to do because they always said that if you see someone with the scars on their body don't ask questions or stare, they know what they did and probably don't regret it because at some point in life they wanted to go and see what life would be like in heaven or to go visit someone they missed, so that's what I did I never asked people about it no matter how curious I was.

Then one day while I was at school the girl I used to be best friends with started to pick on me everyday whenever she seen me alone or crying, yes I use to cry at school, only because I was surrounded by happy people, people who looked like they loved each other, that made me feel sick to the stomach, like I thought it was cute at first and made me want to feel like that, like someone truly cared about me. Anyways the girl that use to pick on me day after day, getting worse each time I was alone. She's one of the reasons that made me feel worthless and like I couldn't find someone that truly loves me and I believed her and the other people that said stuff about me, they all made me feel like that so I started to get into bad, bad habits I use to cut, drink, and smoke my pain away.

Then one day in summer when I was probably 8 my parents were haveing 'trouble' with their lives. When I was about 14 I felt alone and I also felt like I was the reason to all of there arguing so I gave up on trying to fight my brain, I decided to take the pain away by cutting, and this one day when I cut myself I was rushed to the hospital, something about cutting to deep that it went into my veins and I nearly died but they got to me in time and saved me. So when my parents had found out that I have been doing those things after I told them my reasons, they finally decided to get a divorce and I had to stay at my grandmas place for a few weeks until it was sorted out. When the courts has finally decided that I was going to foster care because I didn't know who choose, between my mom or my dad, so when I heard I was going to a foster care I didn't want to go to I told them I would go with my mom because that was the first thing that came to my mind. I had lived with my mom for about 4 months then my mom had started to drink almost every night, she also met this guy that was very rude and started to abuse me every now and then, so I made the decision to packed my stuff and walked to my dads place and told him that we needed to leave and move somewhere new and start over. Thats what we did, we started packing and got ready to move to our new house all the way to Los Angeles, California. Luckily my dad was able to get a job transfer from his accountant job in San Francisco to another accountant job here in the beautiful Los Angeles.

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Like usual I had gotten lost in my thoughts and haven't noticed that I was at school sitting in my car crying, for some reasons whenever I had thought about my past it always brought me to the point where I was crying and made me forget about whatever I was doing. I also noticed that school has already started about 15 minutes ago. So I started to touch up my make-up and collect my things and I made my way to my locker and switch my books before going to the office and signing in.

When I had finally collected my books for the next few classes I was making my way towards the office when I heard footsteps behind me. Am I being followed? I turned around and noticed a shadow behind a corner, I was contemplating if I should go and see who the person was or to continue my way through the school, but the curiosity got to the best of me this time so I turned around and went to see who it was but obviously I would most likely not know who it was since it was only my second day here. When I got around the corner he looked familiar I think his name was Michael, he introduced himself to me yesterday but I didn't want to talk to him because he looked cute and if I got close to him I wouldn't know what to do since no one has liked me for awhileand I would eventually push him away from me. My last boyfriend was about 7 months ago and I really liked him but he didn't, it turns out he was just using me to get close to my ex-friend.

"Ugh...hey?" the random dude said to me breaking me apart from my thoughts, "Hi" I said a bit to quickly and turned around, "wait, I just wanted to introduce myself properly" he said while grabbing my arm and turning me around quietly saying a sorry with it. "Umm.. Yeah so Umm.. Im Michael" he said a bit awkward. "Im Ariana"

(A/N This chapters pretty crap I know. And sorry for getting off topic their. But yea so that's the chapter I hope you enjoyed it. XX luv ya XX)